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When we read or hear the word defend, most of us probably think of fighting. Using force either in our voice or actions. That use to be the case for me too. Defending my actions, opinions, or what I believed about anything, was something I did in an agitated state. This caused there to be force used. Sometimes in my voice, but always internally where it was only evident to me. • • The other day I was openly talking to a co worker about relationships. We have had many open discussions on what I am looking for in my next one. What she believes is capable of happening for me. She comes from a good place in her heart, but she will tell me what I “want” is “asking too much.” I won’t go into specifics here, but I will openly admit I’m looking for a needle in a haystack. And I’m doing this after years of choosing to be a part of the haystack. It’s not easy, and I can be discouraged at times, but I know what’s right for me. • • That’s what I told her in a very calm genuine tone the other day. I explained to her it’s not about what I want. I don’t want to put these restrictions around getting me what I desire. It’s what I need to be healthy and happy in my own right. When I explained it to her that way instead of yelling, or getting offended or hurt, she understood better. Now I didn’t have to defend this to her, and to me I didn’t. Instead I was choosing to be real with someone so they could better understand me. • • Maybe you’re not as open with co workers as I am. It’s not for everyone to decide to be an “open book” so to speak. But we all have people in our lives whose opinions matter to us. People we love that can or have in the past caused us to become defensive when discussing our boundaries. Who have even at least once talked us out of our boundaries. The need to be accepted is strong. I completely understand that. Trust me. But once we are ready our need to be healthy and at peace with ourselves is stronger. • • What are your boundaries. Do you know? Do you have any or are you open to anything out of fear of being rejected or unloved? Again I TOTALLY get it! Today is a great day to start asking ourselves what we really need not want. ♥️


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Yesterday I received news that my Grandmother’s house was put under contract. A little back story here, I have been living, thanks to my family, in this house the last 3 years. It’s been a huge blessing to have had these years to heal, grow, and learn in. To have had these years to become financially ready to purchase the home I will be moving into next year. But like any other ending in life, the news brought some mixed emotions. Then something happened. I got a hug from God to me. • • A couple of hours after the phone call, I went out to the store. As I walked to my car something told me to check the mail. I had just checked it two days ago, I usually only check it once a week. I don’t receive much mail. So I went and looked, there was a puffy white envelope. I’ll admit normally I don’t open mail right away. But this puffy envelope was just intriguing enough to have me open it right then. If you look at the other pictures you can see exactly what it was. • • Some may call that a coincidence. I call it a Godincidence! Right when I needed it most, a message that God was at work in what’s still to come! He showed me that He is not just present in the past, or the future, but in the wait. Knowing that I needed some reassurance He delivered it to me. • • Maybe today God is trying to show you that He is in your wait too. That He isn’t just behind you or before you, but He is right there with you. Knowing that you need a little reassuring today. It might be in a small way, we just have to be positioned in our heart to not miss it. I could have easily shrugged that off yesterday. But instead I allowed it to comfort me. • • One of my favorite quotes from a movie is, “Beginnings are scary. Endings are usually sad, but it's what's in the middle that counts. So when you find yourself at the beginning, just give hope a chance to float up. And it will” • • Hope is all around us! From God, the Holy Spirt, and our Savior Jesus. When He rose again, hope came with Him! Today let’s allow that same message of hope to rise us up too! I know it can be difficult to see how in the beginning or the end of something. Give God a chance and time and watch what He will bring you to!


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Sometimes God has to take us back somewhere to show us how much we have moved forward. He did this for me last Sunday. I accepted an invitation to attend a church I hadn’t been in years. He plopped me down right in the middle surrounded by my biggest hurt and regret. And a message was delivered that 4 years ago would have been unbearable. You know the kind the really hits home and shows you some stuff. And yet I came out unscathed from it all! In fact I had an amazing day full of laughter and love! To put it in some kind of perspective, the last time I was there I was in a wheelchair barely able to walk. The last time I was there I was crying at the altar begging God for healing. This last Sunday God brought me back and showed just how much He has answered that prayer. In every way. Emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically. • • Maybe today God is trying to show you something He’s done that you aren’t seeing. Like me you can still be busy with negative self talk. Busy underestimating yourself and God. So sure that you are closer to being that wounded person, than you are a healed person. Ready to give up because it’s too hard and you feel like you’re not getting anywhere. Today maybe God is trying to tell you to stop altering His work. Where He has designed an open floor plan, you have added a panic room with a steel door that locks 3 different ways. Where He has placed open windows to let light in, you have put thick wooden blinds and dark out drapes. You are changing Gods work and maybe you don’t even know it. It’s time we stop. • • Sometimes in order to show us how much we have healed God has to take us to stand in front of what hurt us. Cause us to look it head on, and be amazed by how well we handle it. I don’t know your hurt, but know that I am sorry. Pain in any form is hard. Today my prayer is that we stop altering the blueprint of Gods healing for us, and allow His design to be our own. • • Side note: I am 4 years into my healing journey and God just took me back last week. Trust Gods timing. Sometimes healing can seem like it’s taking too long, don’t rush and remember grace! Go to God, talk to Him about that hurt. Healing is waiting. ♥️


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Maybe cause they know me! 🤦🏻‍♀️ Seriously though, I had this asked of me more than once at a gathering Sunday. I hadn’t seen most of the people there in years. I knew they meant no harm so I answered back, “ I am. 98% of the time.” • • If we take that question a little deeper, I would ask you and myself this today, “Are you behaving like you want your life to be? Like who you want to be?” If I was asking myself this question years back, and I was capable of answering it honestly, the answer would have been no. I was not living like the life I wanted. Insecurities, guilt, shame, regret, and more were causing me to make choices that did not line up with who I wanted to be. I hid it well behind stubborn pride, a big personality, and being active in my church. Sure I loved others, was there for others, but deep down something was not right. • • Maybe you can relate to this too. From the outside everything seems fine. When people look at you they see someone who has it all together. Probably because you make that seem to be the truth. But if they could see the inside, the stuff you hide, they would see a totally different person. Your actions, your words, do not line up with either who you are or who you want to be. Playing a role gets exhausting doesn’t it? • • One of the best things my life falling apart gave me was a chance to pull off my masks! To stop lying to myself and others about what I felt and what I truly wanted for myself. Now your answer may not look like mine, that’s okay. This is not a post to get you to think like me, but to finally think like your true self. • • For me surrendering my life to God completely was vital to being able to grow this way. To stop hiding behind false truths, and stepping out into real! Finally done with all that was holding me back, and stepping out as His daughter. His chosen one that was meant for more. Yes there are still days I struggle, but never do I feel the need to hide anymore. Now I simply speak my hard times out loud and deal with them. • • Today my prayer for anyone who needs it is to find what matters most to you. Then live your life accordingly. Trusting God to lead you. ♥️


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I had something creating a shadow on my back window yesterday as I drove into work early morning. It startled me as for a moment it looked like an arm or something rising up. I quickly realized it was nothing, but it was just enough to get me thinking? How many years did I spend being afraid of shadows? Of things that once was there but now gone or things that weren’t even real? And am I still doing that today? It was a great reminder of how to get rid of shadows once and for all. More on that in a moment. • • What about you today? Are you living sacred of shadows? Are things from your past still haunting your future? Are you believing that because of things you have done or had done to you, you have no choice but to live hiding? Lurking in the dark, allowing no light in so nothing can be seen? Are you like in this picture creating monsters that don’t need to be? Like when you were a kid, are you making a viscous dog or dinosaur out of only a few harmless fingers? I’ve been there, and know a lot about living scared of your own shadow. • • Here is one BIG truth I know to be true, we as people can be our own worst critics! 🙋🏻‍♀️ Being way harder on ourselves than we would ever dream to be on others. Here is another truth, the enemy LOVES that about us! It does at least half his job for him. If we keep our own selves hidden, he doesn’t have to try so hard to keep us from being a light! No matter what you think today, there is hope! There is a way to step out of the darkness, to stop fearing shadows! • • As I teach my pre-k students, the closer an object gets to the light, the less of a shadow it casts! Our light is Jesus! The closer you and I get to Him, the less we have to worry about any shadows! And the more time we spend with Him, the less scared we become of others truly seeing us. The good and the bad become a part of the story that is our relationship with Jesus. The transformation that has taken place. And that deserves to be seen! • • It does take time, true transformation, but it is more than possible. I know because Jesus Personally transformed me! Yes there were times and can be times I want to quit. But we can’t! Too much is at stake here! 👊🏻


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I’m sure my niece would agree. I have embarrassed her many times with my laughing. She has gone so far as to hide under tables at restaurants. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Yesterday while at a church event even I heard how loud I laugh. And I have to say, it’s pretty loud. Here’s the thing though, I wouldn’t change it if I could. It’s something I do fully, and whole heartedly. • • Laughing really is a great way to relieve stress and feel lighter than you did before a good laugh. I thank God often for restoring my loud, obnoxious at times maybe, laughter. I lost it for a while but God restored it back to its full glory along with many other things. • • Maybe today you believe you have lost your will or ability to laugh, it is gone for good. I totally understand that. And right now maybe you can’t laugh because nothing is funny about what you’ve been through or are going through. I’m not here to tell you to laugh today, but to choose to believe you will again someday. That your life can and will be restored. • • I know what it’s like to read things from people I don’t know who don’t know me. How easy it is to brush off what they are saying. Especially when I couldn’t imagine or even wanted to imagine letting go of my own pain. It’s okay, you don’t have to connect to my words at all, but please connect to God. He is the one who restores what we believe is lost forever. • • 2 Corinthians 13:11 “Finally, brothers and sisters, rejoice! Strive for full restoration, encourage one another, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you.” • • I encourage you today to strive for complete restoration! But don’t do it alone! Do it with people who help lead you to God and can still remember who you are when you have forgotten. Also, allow God in. He is waiting with open arms to return to you all you feel is lost. He may not bring back the exact thing lost, but He can bring you back! I know cause He has done it for me! ♥️


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Sometimes, we all just need a little time and space, but when it comes to relationship breaks, things are never that straightforward. If you’re considering taking a break in your relationship, Stopping to breath to take stock can help clear your mind to whether this is the right decision or not. There are all kinds of reasons why two people who love each other might decide they need a break from their relationship, and a break isn’t always just a precursor to a full-on breakup. Please: FOLLOW + 📲SHARE + 💬 COMMENT #marriagegoals #marriage101 #marriagetips #marriageworks #divorce #divorcemum #divorcedad divorced #divorcerecovery #divorcesucks #success #motivation #relationships #youcanfindtheone #knowyourtrueworth #youcandothis #relationshiptalk #relationshiptips #marriage #selfawareness #issues #loveandreltionships #AnitaMcCannCoaching #love #loveyourself #loveher #selflove #lovehim #lovecoach #callingintheone


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This! This is what I’ve been working toward the last year! Owning my first home! These are pictures of the model I picked out. Waiting on final loan paper work and final approval then they can start building! • • I want to always be honest on here with you. Share my good and my struggles. This is a bittersweet moment for me. On one side God is brought me to this place after such loss and brokenness. After the financial burden of not working almost a year, medical upon medical bills, money out of pocket still spent on physical massage therapy. But I am on my own able to finally make this dream come true! On my own is the second part. I never imagined I would be buying a home to live in alone. I always pictured me and my better half picking a home out together. Raising a family. So I am experiencing joy and some personal sorrow at the same time. I’m not allowing it to take anything form this blessing, but I do feel it. • • Maybe you can relate too. You are experiencing joy and grief at the same time. One of the best things I have been taught lately is that emotions can coexist. Feelings are a complicated thing. If you’re feeling multiple emotions today I know how confusing it can be. And how the enemy can try and tell us we are being ungrateful. • • Dear God thank you for every blessing I hold! And for every blessing I don’t know is coming yet! God you know my heart and that it’s torn right now. I am feeling different emotions about what you are currently doing in my life. Please help me deal with them all and heal from the ones I need to. I surrender all to you! In Jesus name I pray, Amen. • • 1 Thessalonians 4:13, “Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope.” Though this verse speaks of a physical death, sometimes we are grieving what may feel like the death of hope or a dream. Today let’s continue hoping in our assuredness of Jesus Christ. ♥️


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In a video by Lisa Nichols she teaches her son to look after a women's heart like an egg?? To demonstrate she makes him run around the room holding an egg in his hand, she keeps encouraging him to go faster when finally he says 'But what if I crack the egg?? Lisa's answer was 'That’s it son when you begin to date treat a women's heart like that egg, take care of her'. Please: FOLLOW + 📲SHARE + 💬 COMMENT #marriagegoals #marriage101 #marriagetips #marriageworks #divorce #divorcemum #divorcedad divorced #divorcerecovery #divorcesucks #success #motivation #relationships #youcanfindtheone #knowyourtrueworth #youcandothis #relationshiptalk #relationshiptips #marriage #selfawareness #issues #loveandreltionships #AnitaMcCannCoaching #love #loveyourself #loveher #selflove #lovehim #lovecoach #callingintheone


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I’ve been in a personal spiritual ministry leading slump lately. Not felt as connected to what God is sharing with me. Then it hit me, God is trying to do something new, and I’m being sucked in by old pattern ways. God can’t do anything new when I am living in old ways. • • There is one thing I believe God is pushing me to create new thoughts, patterns, and ways in. It’s my need to be in control and know things. This need of mine got better for a while after coming back from illness and huge life change. As the years pass, it’s slowly but surely making its way back in. As much as I say, “I am not going to do this today.” I still do it. As much as I know God worked everything out for my good these last years of great unknown. I still do it. And it’s at an all time high after these last few years. • • It’s like I teach my pre-k kids, a pattern can no longer exist when something new is introduced. It changes everything. Something new is created. God can’t be in our old patterns, He changes everything! He is in the business of making things new! • • Maybe there is something that you would like to stop doing as well. A pattern in your life that you desperately want to change. I am right there with you. I am not going to say this will be easy. But if you and I desire to be new in Christ, we must be willing to lay it down, no matter the cost. • • Dear God, thank you for loving me even when I’m still in or going back to old ways. God I want to be made new. I want to stop repeating old patterns expecting a new life. As much as I have tried, I can’t do this on my own. Please help me do what I can’t. Please come into my heart, my mind, my life, and do what only You can do. In Jesus name, Amen.


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“The LORD your God in your midst, The Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.” Zephaniah 3:17 • • In this journey of self discovery, I have learned to realize when I am experiencing great anxiety. I am happy to say it doesn’t happen as often now, but it’s still something I must recognize and deal with. For me I begin allowing my imagination get the best of me. I can worst case scenario something in 2.5 seconds. When I begin doing this I know I am relying too much on myself and not enough on God. So I have to take a step back and play the “anything is possible but is it probable game.” Then I go to God with all I’m feeling and together we pinpoint why. Then I can talk it out with a friend or my pastor/friend/life coach. • • In the above verse we are told, promised, that God will quiet us with His love. He will rejoice over us with singing. I don’t know about you but when I hear music I can’t help but move to the flow of it. In this instance the flow is moving in freedom. • • Today if you’re feeling off, your anxiety alarm is ringing, it’s might be a warning that you aren’t surrendering somewhere. I know that’s always the case with me. There is a place in your life that you are still trying to control. God invites you and I daily through His word to sit down and spend some time with Him. Talk to Him. Allow Him to silence those alarms. I want to leave you with a few verses from this new song. • • “It's hard for me to let go, hard for me to breathe Thinking that I gotta control it all I can feel my worry and anxiety When it's slipping through my fingers and I know it But I hear You whisper to me If I lose my grip I could see That You are carrying me”


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I had this question pop in my head this morning and I felt right away it was an interesting idea worth exploring? Which one would I choose? • • The statement of Joel 2:25—“I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten”—is a reference to the produce of food from the years the locusts destroyed the harvest. However God placed that in the Bible for us today as well. • • Lost years. Some of us feel as if we have too many of those to get back. Whether it’s years we rebelled from God, went our own way, causing destruction in our life. Whether it’s we had a child rebel and left years of rifts between family members. Whether it’s years spent in a marriage or relationship that ended with someone walking away, leaving only shattered hearts and hopes. Whether it’s years of trying to conceive a child putting all your emotional strength into having this come true, only to still be without child still. Or it’s some other kind of lost years. God is in the restoration business! • • Really the good news is with God we don’t have to choose! Though God won’t turn back time for us, He can do so much more with the time we have left when we surrender it to Him. And though you may feel emotionally drained today, I promise you He can and will restore your strength as you spend time in His presence. • • Ultimately the message here is one of hope! No matter how low you are feeling today, God is capable of rising you up! I know because He is in the process of restoring my many locust years and heart. So if you had to make a choice today, I strongly suggest choosing God. ♥️ Joel 2:24 “The threshing floors will be filled with grain; the vats will overflow with new wine and oil.”


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It can be liberating beyond measure if we open ourselves up to our past experiences, not to rekindle any memories of trauma but to observe why our tenacious negative and unhelpful emotions can cause destructive patterns that have been diminishing our ability to love and be loved. If we can do that, then we can begin to open ourselves to the possibilities that were there all along..... Please: FOLLOW + 📲SHARE + 💬 COMMENT #marriagegoals #marriage101 #marriagetips #marriageworks #divorce #divorcemum #divorcedad divorced #divorcerecovery #divorcesucks #success #motivation #relationships #youcanfindtheone #knowyourtrueworth #youcandothis #relationshiptalk #relationshiptips #marriage #selfawareness #issues #loveandreltionships #AnitaMcCannCoaching #love #loveyourself #loveher #selflove #lovehim #lovecoach #callingintheone


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Growing seasons are hard. I’ll admit I feel like I’ve been in a non stop growing season for years now. Self realization is not an easy thing to do. As necessary as it is to grow and learn in order to get to where we want, I’d love nothing more some days than to be able to skip it. To go back to being unaware of how much growth I truly need. I’d love nothing more than to go back to hiding in my insecurities, behind the masks that are familiar, and being unaware of the mess I am. Well I’d love nothing more except the person I am becoming. • • Maybe you’re like me today and would love to get away from your own journey of growth. To be more Christ like is not an easy path to take. So I wrote down amazing reminders of just some of the things we receive from our relationship with Him. Treasures that wait within the scars he took on for you and I. • • Forgiveness, grace, mercy, new identity, new beginning, healing, truths, wisdom, peace, patience, love, strength, bravery, freedom, new life, gentleness, rest, acceptance, eternal life, and purpose. • • Today let’s not take a break from our pruning season, instead let’s take solace in what we are gaining in our growth. • • Also, we all have our own scars. Markings on us that can be painful reminders of a past or present we would like to forget. We may try to hide them, pretend they aren’t there, all to no avail. Today is a great day to see your own scars in a new light. To see them as times the enemy or the world tried to end you but failed! To see them as a road or roads to your purpose! To see them as the way that led you to your greatest treasure of all, a relationship with Jesus. ♥️


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Me! Me! Me! 🙋🏻‍♀️🙋🏻‍♀️I love chocolate milk! A title too much maybe for a woman my age. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I read an interesting headline for an article the other day that stated a certain percentage of people believed chocolate milk comes from brown cows. Im not sure how true this article was but the headline left me scratching my head. How could anyone believe such a crazy untruth? • • Many of us do this daily though and may not realize it. We believe untruths about ourselves that leave God “scratching His head”. Wondering how His beloved child could believe such crazy untruths. You know untruths like I am not good enough, I am not loved by anyone, I never get anything right, that addiction is too strong, I’ll never be able to break this habit, they were right about me I’m not worth anyone’s time” and so on. Or even something like “I didn’t have time to read my Bible thinks morning God is angry or disappointed in me now.” • • I personally know all too well what it is to believe such cray untruths. This led me to trying way too hard to prove myself to myself and others. Even prove myself to God. It was an exhausting battle for years I didn’t even know I was in. Maybe today you too find yourself always fighting but don’t know why? Find yourself going to a bottle more, a pill more, a computer screen more to watch or do things you shouldn’t, or some other habit you can’t seem to break. Behind every hurtful choice is a reason. Mine was fear of never being good enough. Do you know yours? • • Today I encourage you not only to enjoy a cold glass of Chocolate Milk, but also to get real with yourself and God. Ask Him to show you your own “chocolate milk brown cows” untruths. Show you what lies you are buying into that He can help you unlearn. Ask God to help you see yourself through His truths today and everyday. ♥️


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One of my jobs as a pre-K teacher that rarely gets talked about is teaching children how not to feel they have to yell constantly to be heard. I was walking out to my car a couple of weeks ago with a dad and his son. He and I were talking and the little boy (about 3) started yelling to talk to his dad. His dad replied, “Okay you’re not in your classroom anymore you don’t have to yell son.” • • Sometimes like this little boy, we get so use to the noise going on around us, our screaming becomes natural. Even when our environment has been made calm, we still are yelling in order to be heard. And our hearing, if this environment goes on long enough, can get damaged. This makes it difficult to hear the whispers God is speaking to us. • • One of the things I say to my students when they are yelling right in the face of a friend is, “You don’t have to yell, they are right there.” Another thing I sometimes do is go to the front of the classroom, turn off the lights, and do a whisper test. I calm the environment then tell them to raise their hand when they think they hear me. Inevitably when I first begin to whisper even the children in the back can hear me. I do this to demonstrate to them the power of whisper taking. • • How about you today? Are you maybe having a hard time hearing the power of Gods whisper because your environment is too loud? Or maybe you are so use to loud you can’t hear when something is spoken quietly? Or maybe you are yelling at God or others or yourself today because you feel it’s the only way you can be heard? I’ve been there, and can still be there at times. So use to “fighting” for what I want. Or to feel seen or heard. Today go to a dark room if you need to. Cut off all outside noises or distractions and quiet your environment as much as you can. Then allow God to whisper, “I’m right here with you, you don’t have to shout anymore. Let me quiet the storm within you and show you the fight is over.” (Psalm 34:18) This will take time and dedication but keep going. And never settle for anything less than a place you feel heard, seen, and loved, even when you say nothing at all. ♥️


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***Shared from a team mate because I feel the exact same way! I done tons of research before taking the leap but I knew my former company wasn't where I needed to be and I am so blessed I found Farmasi!!!***** Why did I choose Farmasi? One MAIN REASON was I discovered we do not have "Corporate Sponsored Legs" In other words- I don't have a person who is directly connected to Farmasi Corporate that earns 100k a month off the downline. We have United States Regional Corporate Directors. And 1 United States Corporate Sales Business Director They are employed by Farmasi Corporate. This is so refreshing. I didn't "get it" at first but seeing and hearing what is going on in my former company really validates my choice. I love this business because I believe in business EQUALITY. I don't care about your title, rank or how much money you make. It is completely irrelevant to me. What is relevant? My happiness, peace, joy, fun in business, amazing and affordable products, HAPPY customers and a business team that is truly winning AT ALL LEVELS. NO SHAME IN MY GAME - If you're uneasy, afraid, dont know the next move, not getting answers or simply OVER the BS where you are- trust me you could put a band aid over it but it wont fix it... Let's chat you can be apart of this too! #knowyourtrueworth #dontletothersstopyou #youareworthit


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I received my first email contact off my blog ever today! It’s so awesome when I’m given the privilege to share my story, and the hope of God, with others on a more personal level. She said she was reading through my 2017 blogs and then shared why she was reaching out. The biggest thing being any advice I could give her as to why even though she was doing certain things like reading her Bible, something was still missing. • • Boy have I been there! Doing all the right things for God, but something was still missing! Maybe you can relate to this too right now. Or have felt this way in the past. This feeling can lead to us believing maybe God doesn’t really exist. Or that He does, but He doesn’t care about us. When in reality most of the time we have forgotten one important thing. • • I responded back to her telling her this is my biggest piece of advice, get real with God! That getting real with God is a must if we ever expect Him to be real to us. No superficial relationship anymore. Genuine, dirty, raw, is what is required here. Taking the good and the bad to God. • • Relationship over religion is what it comes down to for me. And you can’t have a relationship without honest communication. Once I got real with God, I also got real with myself. I could clearly see what was holding me back from surrendering to God my heart and my life fully. I never could have gotten there still having idle chit chat with God! Neither can you! • • If your desire is to know God, then introduce the real you to Him. Not that He doesn’t already know, but for your benefit of growing closer to Him. Also surrounding yourself with worship music daily. Reading 10 minutes in your Bible. (Ask for help here if you need to. It’s ok.) Talk to God throughout the day. Surround yourself with those who will help you look back to God if/when you get off focus. (It happens to all of us) Growing any relationship takes time. Growing in love takes time. Don’t be disheartened or discouraged if you don’t “feel different” right away. I promise you this is one relationship worth never giving up on! ♥️


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I was introduced to this amazing song “The God Who Sees” by Nicole C Mullen’s this past Friday night. I HIGHLY recommend it to anyone feeling despair or hopelessness. • • In this song it goes through Hagar, to Ruth, to David, to Jesus. It begins with Hagar a single mother alone with her son, abandoned by her family, she is wondering if anyone cares or loves her, feeling lost in despair. Then to Ruth, a widow who is left with her mother in law who is also a widow. Ruth decides to follow her to Bethlehem even though she has no others sons to betroth her to. Ruth is trusting in faith that though she has no idea what or who lies ahead in this town she had never been to, hope is waiting for her. She is leaving behind her despair with each step towards a new town and new life. Then to David. The once Shepard boy, who defeated Goliath, who is anointed to be King, is hiding afraid for his life. Though there is greatness behind him and before him in the moment he feels abandoned and scared. • • God says of Hagar “I will be a ring of fire around her And I will be the glory in her midst And the power of my presence Will bring her to her knees And I will lift her up again. Cause I'm the God who never changes And My promises are true And when this world deserts you This is what I'll do” To Ruth, “I will put a ring around your finger And I will bless a child within your womb And the Savior will be born through you To free the world from sin And He'll make all things new for you And love you back to life again.” To David, “I will be the Rock of your salvation I'll hold you up by the strength of My right hand And the power of My Spirit Will free you from all fear In the hour of your deepest need You'll find that I am near.” • • Then we finally get to Jesus. The Savior! He is our healer! No matter what you are feeling today, you can take it to Him. God loves you the same as He did Hagar, Ruth, and David. His compassion is the same. He is as zealous for you as them. Go to Him and allow Him to be whatever you need Him to be.


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Yesterday in my gratitude journal the # 5 thing I was grateful for was the “extras” in my life. I’ll explain. • • I originally offered to purchase a piece of land that quickly began to prove itself not to be the great deal I was led to believe it was. I took advantage of due diligence and decided not to be my usual stubborn self, and backed out of the deal. That decision led to finding a new piece of land that not only wouldn’t cost me more money, but got me way under budget! So under budget that I am now having a back deck built onto my home! That’s an extra! Yes I need a place to live, but it doesn’t have to be a house with a back deck! Thank you God for the extras! • • Yes I need a car to get around, but it doesn’t have to be my dream car! Yes I need clothes to wear, but my clothes today don’t have to be that cute outfit I had my eyes on. Yes I need food to eat, but my food doesn’t have to be that nice meal out my family and I just shared together. I don’t need a tv to watch football on much less that big screen I have! How many extras in our lives do we miss out on thanking God for? I know so miss a lot. • • I hesitated to write this because I try to think of everyone who might read my words. And I am fully aware that some may not have as many extras as another. As a person who doesn’t have the nice car, doesn’t have her own little family to eat dinner with, doesn’t have that cute outfit, I will have a back deck! We all have at least one thing in our life right now that is something a little extra to be thankful for. So please don’t let this be a post that highlights for you what you don’t have, but instead helps you highlight what you do have. God we are especially thankful for the extra in our life that is the blood of Jesus. ♥️


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Yesterday I signed papers to officially put my house under contract! 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻 And then did a little looking at fun stuff for your home at Hobby Lobby. First time I ever stepped in one! Wow! It’s a pretty amazing place! • • Today I want to take a moment to encourage those who are feeling hopeless about their current place in life. How though it may take time, life does move forward. There are still amazing things coming you can’t fathom right now because of your emotions. Things you can’t see because they haven’t happened yet! I am a walking testimony that where you’re at does not have to be where you stay. • • 4 years ago this month started a battle for me I didn’t see coming. This battle ravaged my body with illness, my mind with anxiety, and my heart with heartache. When it was all said and done my life that was on track with all I ever wanted, was left in ruins. In 4 years God has helped me heal physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Not to mention my credit wrecked by medical bills and a money account left empty after 10 months of not working. Yesterday I signed papers to purchase land and build my first home! Praise God! • • I don’t know your circumstances today. I know I can’t possibly understand your grief, anger, feelings of how do I get through today. Those feelings are your own. I only want to encourage you today that a time does come when the storm passes, the clouds part, and the sun does shine again! God is capable of taking your hurt and healing it. No matter how impossible that seems. I want you to know that someone else has been where you are right now, and been brought through to the other side. It can happen for you too! • • Dear God, thank you for seeing me even in my pain, my anger, even in my questioning of you. God you know I can’t see past my pain right now, but you can. Please help me surrender to you all of how I feel and do my healing journey with You. I know it won’t be easy, I know it will take time, I am deciding today to trust that you will be here through it all. Be patient with me Lord, and help me to be patient with myself. I love you Lord, thank you for always loving me. In Jesus name, Amen.


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Don’t wait on anybody else to set you free. When we wait on other people, when we wait on the perfect moment, when we procrastinate on our freedom we can never truly live our authentic self! Stop fighting battles they don’t need to be fight and give it up today. Simplify your life by remaining in the here and now! #simplyinspirenow


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“So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.” Genesis 1:27 • • I was given an assignment to seek God’s answer as to what He was thinking when He created me. To write out at least 25 positive adjectives that describe who Christa is. I will be working on that this weekend and to be honest it frightens me a little. Mostly because speaking positively about myself does not come naturally. I’m the first to raise my hands on my faults, my weaknesses, but not my strengths. Maybe you can relate to this struggle too. • • About 20 minutes ago I had this thought, if I am created in God’s image, there are already adjectives that immediately say who I am. They say who you are too! So here is a list of positive affirming words of who we are! • • Honest, good, loving, awesome, authentic, amazing, anointed, beautiful, blessed, brilliant, compassionate, complete, courageous, inspiring, important, protected, remarkable, sought, strong, sanctified, and wise. • • This is just some in a long list of adjectives. I don’t know about you, but this is not the list I usually use to describe myself. Like yesterday, again I want to invite you to join me in seeking the words God uses to describe who you are. Sit down with Him and ask Him, “God, what were you thinking when you created me?” Then with pen and paper in hand, write down what He tells you. • • I know how scary it can be to sit down and listen for God to speak. What if I don’t hear anything? What if God doesn’t answer me? What if I don’t matter enough to God? All of these worries and more can plague us when we first start reaching out to God. I can’t answer those fears for you only God can. I can only tell you that He answers me. And I know God loves you as much as He does me. So if you’re scared, please simply give God a chance. No matter if it’s an adjective list or just a God are you there, reach out to Him today. ♥️


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For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. The King James Version ends like this, “and we should walk in them.” Meaning we should walk in the way God created us, CAPABLE! • • Again I will be the first to admit I can vastly underestimate myself. I want to give you an example that came to my mind this morning. FB memories this morning showed me that 3 years ago I was struggling to find a place to live within my budget. I can remember the uncertainty of that time. Then I remembered also a conversation I had many many many many years ago now with someone about why I was scared to leave a relationship I knew was not healthy. I said to her, “but I can’t make it on my own. What if I need new tires on my car I don’t have that kind of money.” Sounds silly to me now, a little embarrassing honestly. But it was how little faith I had in myself, and by extension God. Fast forward to today and I am almost under contract (loan fully approved) to purchase my first home by myself! And I have successfully put my own tires on my car the past 10 years since that conversation too! 👊🏻😂 • • My point is this. We all have reasons why we don’t feel capable at times. Different ways we don’t feel capable at times. And it’s not wrong to feel that way, it becomes wrong when we live our life that way. I am learning that I can feel many things, I simply need to surrender them to God. Overwhelmed, under qualified, less than, more than, rejected, forgotten, unseen, unloved, unwanted, and more. I take them all to God. • • God created you and I for reasons we probably don’t fully know yet. I was given an assignment by my Pastor and friend to sit down with God and ask Him what He had in mind when He created me. Then listen and write at least 25 positive adjectives about myself. I’ll be doing that this weekend, I invite you to join me in doing the same. Let’s stop underestimating God and by extension ourselves! ♥️


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“When I thought I lost me You reintroduced me to Your love You picked up all my pieces Put me back together You are the defender of my heart.” • • Feel like your heart is broken worse than Humpty Dumpty ever was? You stepped out on a ledge, put your heart out there, only to have it left in pieces? Most of us if not all of us have been there at least once in our life. Some of us however have unfortunately been there more than others. And we may be left wondering if this time our heart can be put back together again. This heartbreak feels like it’s permanent. • • I know exactly how that feels. In fact for the last few years I have been healing my heart with God after personal loss left me unsure I’d ever feel whole again. • • “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18 • • I may not know your circumstances, but I do know the feeling of hopelessness. The thoughts of, “I will never heal from this. It’s too much. I will hurt like this forever.” And in some ways you might be right. Some wounds never fully heal, but if you’ll allow Him to, in time God can help you get back to life again. Help you grieve in a healthy way what you have lost, and get back to all that still remains. Yes this will take time. Yes you will need the help of others to get through it. Yes you will have good and bad days. Yes you will cry and scream and be angry. All natural ways of healing your BIG hurt. Surrender all of these moments and emotions to God, He is not mad at you for them. He understands grief, He sacrificed His only Son for us. • • “And about the ninth hour Jesus cried with a loud voice, saying, Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani? that is to say, My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?” Matthew 27:46 In His pain of the sin Jesus took on God looked away, he could not bare it. • • God can however stand up to the grief you are carrying right now. He is close to you waiting for you to allow Him to hold you. I have healed in a way I did not think was possible. And though I know I still have some healing work left, I certainly do not feel broken anymore. Forget the Kings horses and men, I had Jesus the true King put me back together again


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When I am feeling particularly defeated, I listen to “You Can’t Stop Me” by Andy Mineo. It’s also a great work out song! It’s main message is one I need to hear over and over again. • • One thing I know to be true about myself, and what I believe to be true about others is this. We don’t always give ourselves enough credit when it comes to why our life isn’t going the way we say we want it to go. That nasty four letter word, FEAR, stops us from pursuing Gods best plans for us. • • I have seen this meme floating around for a while that says , “If you believe you have ruined Gods plans for you, you are not that powerful.” I get its meaning. It’s well intentioned meaning. And at times it gave me a sense of peace. But it’s not completely true. Our free will makes us powerful enough to not accomplish Gods plans for us. If I decided out of fear to not start this page for example, which almost happened, I wouldn’t have reached those I have for God. The words, “Nobody cares what you have to say”‘almost got the best of me. • • One of the verses in the song goes like this, “Well if I listen to you, everything you put in my ear. I’d be living like could’ve, should’ve, would’ve, I’d be paralyzed by fear.” • • I believe with all my might it is never too late to get back on track with God. As long as there is breath in our lungs it’s not too late! But some of us waste so much precious time being held hostage by fear. It keeps us from doing our part to step out in faith and live out Gods plans for our lives. I am my own worst enemy most of the time. I’m done doing Satans work for him! • • “Dear God, Thank you for being a God that has plans for my life that far exceed what I can dream up. I want those plans for my life and I’m sorry for any part I have played in getting in the way. I am ready now God and I believe it’s not too late with you! But God you know my fears, you know my worries, you know my doubts. Please Lord help me listen to you from this moment forward more than I listen to lies. In Jesus name, Amen”


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I had this intense weird dream last night. I must stop having a snack right before bed. In this dream I was working in a grocery store. A man came in with a gun holding all who was in the store hostage. The dream preceded with threats being made to make us cooperate. Then at some point someone started sending the one holding us hostage out to do things for the people in the group. Here’s the really weird thing, none of us left any of the times the man with the gun left. We stayed there under a table continuing to be his captive. 🤷🏻‍♀️ • • Seems silly doesn’t it? Staying put somewhere when the one holding you hostage has left. When who or what once had a hold on us has been removed. Sounds silly, yet a lot of us do this daily and for many years. I will be the first to own up to being held hostage by things long removed from my presence. I believe there are different reasons this happens. Most of it though I feel comes down to fear. Though the threat has been removed, it has held us captive and kept us stagnant for so long, we are scared of taking any steps forward. Though we know we are free, we don’t know what to do with our new found freedom. • • When we carry something long enough, it inevitably becomes a part of us. Whether we recognize it as still being there or not. Trauma has a way of sticking around way after the threat has been removed. Addiction, anger, anxiety, depression, low self worth. All of these are effects of trauma that hold us captive, when in reality we have been free to leave for some time now. The gunman has left, but we stay hidden under a table where it feels safer to be than taking a chance on running towards our freedom • • Today it’s my prayer that those of us holding our own self captive see the chains are gone. We have been set free by Jesus. I pray we go to God today asking Him to help us walk away from what He as already delivered us from.


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“For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” Ephesians 2-10 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." Jeremiah 1:5 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 • • Life can become chaotic. Life can leave us displaced at times wondering what happened to the life we thought we were meant to live. Life can seem like a war we must defeat but never seem to be able to. All of this can leave us wondering what we were meant to do, created to do. What is the purpose in the chaos and our purpose while here on earth. • • Some of us might have had the thought that following God would mean things would automatically fall into place. That our purpose would magically find its way. Well magic may not be the way it comes, and easily may not be the way it comes, but divinely instead. • • The Book of Jeremiah is all about God disrupting his people’s plans and upending his people’s dreams. However the exile they were in was not accidental and was not permanent. We can assume the the people’s life plans did not include what they were going through when Jeremiah 29:11 was spoken. • • There are times we can feel maybe we are not covered by promises in the Bible. They were so long ago, spoken over others that lived so long ago. But if we are in Christ, then all of the blessings promised to Abraham’s offspring are now ours, since we are united to the heir of all those promises (Gal. 3:14–29). Today let’s decide to believe Gods word that we were made for bigger things than the current chaos we may be living in.


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I saw this yesterday and it immediately spoke to me. Sometimes in my bodies very lengthy recovery process, I can forget how much I have already survived. • • Healing takes time. True, proper, let’s completely fix the problem, healing does not happen over night. Whether it’s physical healing or emotional healing or mental healing. Whether it’s healing a marriage, a friendship, or any relationship, it takes time. • • I read this the other day, “Healing takes time. There is a reason God waited 22 years before reuniting Jospeh and his brothers.” Healing is not something that can be done quickly even in the presence of God. God knows this about us. He gave years between the betrayal and the reuniting. Joseph was then able to extend grace and mercy out to those who harmed him most. Even though it was a part of Joseph’s journey it still was a hurt that needed time to heal. • • Today I want to challenge myself and anyone who needs it to trust our healing process. To be able to see how far we really have come. To not mistake our healing and growing pains, to be the same pain as our trauma(s). That yes there can be pain in the reshaping, remolding, and repairing of who we are. But God got us through the worst and will definitely get us through till we get to our best life. He did it for Joseph and He has been doing the same for those who allow Him to ever since. May we surrender our own healing timeline and simply focus on the One who heals.


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Please note this is not a post about 9/11 or anything political. As we come upon the anniversary of what happened years ago on this date, I had this thought of never forgetting vs living in the memory of something. • • When we go to God and repent of our sins, when we accept Jesus as our savior, our sins are washed clean. What we did no longer is remembered and we are made new. I know from personal experience however, that some of us can’t fully receive that gift because we are still living in the memory of our mistakes. God forgets our sins immediately. We remember them so we can always remember all God has delivered us from. But never forgetting does not have to be a life sentence of regret. • • Same goes for when others hurt us. None of us have the divine power of forgive and forget. No matter how many times that cliche is used. But remembering is not the same as dwelling. Just because something is always with us, doesn’t mean it has to continue to affect us. Affect our mood, relationships, choices. We can refuse to live in the memory of what we can never forget. This will take time, dedication to moving forward, and a lot of grace for ourselves and the other person. Also time spent with God daily to help you heal. And if needed time talking to someone who can help you talk through your feelings. • • Today let’s thank God for His forgetting of our own wrong doings and the freedom that gives us to leave our past behind. Even if that past was 5 minutes ago. Let’s also pray for strength and willingness to walk away from the memories of our hurts and into the hope of a future without old habits of dealing with them. We may never forget our past, but we no longer have to live in the shadows living in its memories cast. I myself am a work in progress here so I know how much this takes to accomplish, but the freedom is so worth it! ♥️


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As I was just lying here mustering the desire to get up and go do this day, I am thinking about all my current unknowns. That’s when I said “I just don’t know” and then “I know you don’t but I do.” • • Currently I’m figuring out how as a single woman who earns her living as a pre-k teacher can keep up with all the expenses that keep coming up as I buy land and put a home of my own on it. How can I keep my EXACT budget? Today there is an interested buyer coming to look at the house I’ve been living in by the blessing of my family. So the question of where will I live while I wait to have my house built that won’t be ready till first of next year? How do I face another day at a job that honestly takes all I have to want to go to these days. It’s been very stressful lately. And more unknowns. I just don’t know God. • • Truth is we all face unknowns. I’m not alone in that. And yes sometimes we face more than other times. And it’s scary to have no idea of how or when. It’s then we must remember that God knows. And that we can’t change one thing by worrying. That only makes things harder than they have to be. But how do we not worry in the face of such unknowns. • • Well honestly I don’t know. I haven’t figured out yet how not to worry. I wish I could tell you I have. But if I had, I wouldn’t be writing this post right now. Yes there are God words that tell us many many times “Do not be afraid for I am with you.” “Do not worry about what you’ll eat or wear.” “I know the plans I have for you.” But we are human, prone to worry and wander away from Gods promises. He knows that about us. That’s why He sent Jesus. • • So if you’re worried God is mad at you because you worried again about that thing you just surrendered 5 minutes ago and promised you wouldn’t worry about again. He isn’t. Yes He wants us to trust Him, He also knows the exact amount of surrenders that will take. So no matter how many times we have to go back to Him and release the same things to Him, it’s okay. Do not let the enemy, or anyone else make you believe God loves you less because you are scared to face your great unknowns. Allow God to remind you as many times as you need that He knows.


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Yesterday after a talk with a fellow church member and listening to a few songs she suggested, the song “Through The Fire” by Chaka Kahn came to my mind. Now yes, this is indeed a secular song intended for romantic couples. After the chorus popped in my head (I haven’t heard this song in many many years) I decided to listen to it. Immediately I had a completely different perspective of this song. • • Love, it can cause us to do some crazy things. Cause us to take chances we normally wouldn’t take. The same should be true in our love story with God. The verses in this song do an awesome job of explaining what our relationship with God should be like. • • “When it's this good, there's no saying no. I want you so, I'm ready to go. Through the fire, to the limit, to the wall. For a chance to be with you I'd gladly risk it all” These should be words we are willing to say to God. The love of God is so good, there is no saying no to it. And though His love is free, that doesn’t mean it won’t come without effort on our end. Any relationship is give and take. Trusting Gods love for us means saying, I’d do and go through anything for a chance to be with you. To live this life with you. Easier said than done I know. • • “You touched me and something in me knew What I could have with you Now I'm not ready to kiss that dream goodbye” From the moment God touches our heart, our life, we know instantly it’s something special. But life can happen and get in the way of the greatest love we will ever know. It’s then we must hold on like never before and refuse to say goodbye to the dream it is to be close to God. To walk with Him through our life being loved like never before. • • “Through the test of time.” This verse reminds me to never give up no matter how long the journey is. No matter how hard it gets, we never give up on God, because He never gives up on us. Gods love has remained for us through the test of time, ours for Him should too. • • Today let’s make the decision to love God at any cost. To walk through the fire with Him trusting He will not let us burn. (Daniel 3 13-30)


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I was incredibly lucky to grow up with two parents who encouraged me wholeheartedly to believe that I could do anything. So much so that sometimes I sign up to things with very little fear until I actually begin. I remember crying on my first day of Body Pump training because the realisation set in that I was out of my depth. Luckily it was too late to retreat and with a generous helping of support and compassion from my teacher and fellow students, I pushed through the combination of fear and pain and succeeded. One amazing thing about this kind of situation is the glorious confidence which follows. Being brave, even accidentally has a massive reward. So I want to tell you right now, as you are, I have complete belief in you. I know that you have everything you need to succeed already inside you. Take that leap, believe in yourself and do something extraordinary. My big jump this month was signing up to hot yoga teacher training in January! #believeinyourself #taketheleap #hotyoga #knowyourtrueworth


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This morning I feel pulled to speak to my friends who have had more than their “fair share” of life struggles. Who have had to fight in life more than those they know. Who have had to have a survive mindset over a thrive mindset for most of their lives. • • Without going into my story, I will simply say, I understand where you are coming from. One thing I have had to realize and accept, is that somethings in life wired me differently than I was created to be. That situations we go through in life change the way we view the world around us, and the way we view God. It’s only natural. However we can’t put God in the same category as what humans have done to us. Instead we can see God in the healing of what humans have done to us. • • Anxiety I believe can be a medical condition, as well as a situational condition. I want to give a quick example from my current situation at work. I have a student in my class (pre-k) who has behavioral issues that are severe. He can have good moments or even good hours. However in these good moments I and my co-teacher are on full awareness mode trying to anticipate his next move. We are never in a relaxed mood because we are anticipating the next bad outbreak or action. I believe that’s some of us in life. Never relaxed waiting for the next bad thing. 🙋🏻‍♀️ • • We do the best we can with what has been learned over the years through certain situations. We are however now wired for fighting. My brain can have an argument won before it NEVER happens. 🤦🏻‍♀️ I see this in myself and know I’m not the only one. I want to fully break free and want the same for you as well. May this be our prayer today and anytime we need it. • • “Dear God, you know what my life has been. What others have used free will to do to me. But you also know who I am beyond that. Who I am not in-spite of it, but because of it. Lord help me to find the strong person hiding inside this scared person I have become. Lord help me to find peace and acceptance with you. To live out the rest of my life fully with my head held high! Knowing my past died on the cross and I am made new! In Jesus name, Amen!”


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Come on! Don’t act like you don’t know what I’m talking about! Writing school papers using all kinds of words to make that word count! 🙋🏻‍♀️ • • What if I told you God doesn’t have a word count? He’s not listening counting each word like Microsoft Word, before He will take our prayer or our feelings seriously. In fact Jesus talks about this. Matthew 6:7, “And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words.” • • This is not to make you now worry if you are using too many words. If each word is genuine and from the heart, use all those words friend! But if you don’t pray because you think you don’t have the correct words, this post is for you. God simply wants what is on our heart and mind. There is no need for big words only faith! As long as we approach God with respect, we aren’t doing it wrong. Even if all that comes out is, “Help me Jesus please!” We will be heard! • • Prayer time is very important. Praying for ourselves, praying for others. I believe the more we pray the easier it gets. And some I believe have a spiritual gift of prayer. They can feel things, sense things, and the Holy Spirit moves in that gift. But we all have the Holy Spirit in us, and the more we connect with him, the better we will get at feeling His presence. Not only in prayer time but in everyday life. So, don’t worry so much about what you say, just talk to your Good Good Father today.


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The other day while praying I feel God finally helped me see something. Something I hadn’t been able to fully put my finger on. I said, “God I can’t keep carrying around the weight of this person and what they think I should be.” I also fully admitted I am putting that weight on myself. Later I hear “I Don’t Want To Be “ by Gavin Degraw. This song really hit this point home for me. • • “I don't want to be anything Other than what I've been trying to be lately All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind I'm tired of looking around rooms wondering what I gotta do Or who I'm supposed to be I don't want to be anything other than me” • • Maybe like me you also are carrying the weight of what others think you should be, or how they see you. It’s time we free ourselves from that! Yesterday I broke it down during prayer time like this, “God, I don’t wanna be anything more than your daughter doing her best to walk through this life with you. Come what may, that’s what I want in its simplest form. To do my best with you.” I encourage you today to sit down with God and figure out what your own “I wanna be” is with Him. • • Some of us are too worried about impressing others, proving our worth after all to others, or not wanting to let others down, that we forget who we want to be and who God wants us to be. Maybe it’s a parent who abandoned you, an ex, a boss who fired you, a parent who always pushed for more from you. It’s time to break fee from that! It’s time to be true to God and to ourselves!


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I’m her. I’m that Christian girl. 🙋🏻‍♀️ My oceans have been rising lately and I need to rest in the presence of God. So I’ll be back Tuesday with hopefully more inspiration and hope from the word of God for us all! Till then I pray you also find yourself praying and praising through it all! Have a wonderful holiday weekend and be safe friends! ♥️


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Yesterday during my morning prayer time, after praying for those feeling lost and overwhelmed, I ended with, “And help us God to see your will not always as a valley, but as a mountain top too.” • • Maybe someone else can relate to this. I can be a worst case scenario type of person. It comes naturally I believe when as a person you have faced more harder times than others. When life has been a fight, it’s hard not to be ready to fight. And in that mindset at times I have fought way more than I was ever intended to. My preparing for the valley mindset, created a version of me that always felt she had to fight to make it to the mountain top. • • I jokingly said to God the other day, “I don’t have fight or flight. I have fight or fight.” And though determination is good, like any other gift, when it’s over used it becomes unhealthy. When you and I are always on fight mode our minds and bodies can’t relax. Not to mention we leave no space for Gods will because we automatically are deciding for Him. “This will not go my way, nothing ever does, I can’t do that, if it weren’t for bad luck I’d have no luck at all” and so forth, block blessings of God. When we pre-reject ourselves, God can’t work in that. Our free will is getting in His way. • • I want to make it clear I know from my own disappointments, that hope can be difficult to obtain and maintain. I have to do a hope check on myself all the time. But if you believe in God, believe in His word, than believing that better is coming is possible. Not that everything will go our way, but that what does will be His perfect will. I pray that you and I can stop visualizing valleys and start seeing ourselves on the mountaintops more! And remember that God is on both, and hills and valleys are what life is made of. I pray our hope never diminishes no matter where we are. That we stay connected to our source!


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When I thought I lost me You knew where I left me You reintroduced me to Your love You picked up all my pieces Put me back together You are the defender of my heart. (Defender- Rita Springer) • • This is a beautiful song that praises God for the defender He is. If you haven’t heard it I highly suggest you add it to you playlist. • • One of the things my illness and anxiety during it did was cause me to completely lose myself. The Christa I had always been was far from perfect, but had handled a lot and never “lost it” the way I did during this very dark season of my life. Physically, emotionally, literally, and metaphorically, I was wasting away to nothing. I could not find the woman I knew before. The fighter in me was gone. • • It wasn’t until I stopped trying, and gave in to needing God to fix it, that I began to find my way back. To me I was hopelessly lost, God knew better. He knew all I needed to do was remember Him, so I could again find myself in Him. • • To anyone in a dark place right now, who feels they are gone forever. You can’t remember where you left yourself or when you first became lost. God knows exactly where you are. Whether you left yourself in a bottle, a needle, wrapped up in anxiety, under a wall of anger, in a pit of shame and regret, it doesn’t matter. God can and will find you! If you are willing to be found. • • One thing my anxiety did was make me believe I had to find the answer. This led to me googling any and everything. And though Google knows a lot, it also knows a lot of bad. Worst case scenario at our fingertips is never a good idea. Maybe for some today that’s your problem. Maybe some of you are convinced your answer is in one more drink or hit. I don’t know. But I do know this, no matter where you are looking, if you aren’t looking up, you are looking in the wrong place. • • Today my prayer is that we first can acknowledge where we are going for answers is not solving our problems. That we can acknowledge God as the true help we need. That we also seek help by talking to another person we trust. That we stop seeing ourself as lost, and start seeing ourself as found by God. That hope springs ETERNAL!


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What’s the first rule of fight club? You don’t talk about fight club. • • Who remembers this gem of a movie? I remember the first time I watched it. I was so super mad at the ending. It made me rethink everything I thought I knew during the movie. That the entire story was taking place in Nortons head. But makes sense why Pitts character insisted Nortons character never discuss fight club. • • When we go through a dark season, our mind can be our own worst enemy. There can be a voice telling us, “Din’t talk about that.” Some of that could be human pride, and some can be the enemy not wanting us to share our struggle. Why? Because the enemy knows what we talk about is no longer hidden. And it won’t be long before light comes in and sheds itself all over our darkness. • • It’s time we change the rule of our own personal fight clubs. Not that we go around shouting our problems to everyone we come across, but we find at least one person we trust to share our secrets with. The faster we stop keeping our demons a secret in the dark, the sooner we can defeat them! • • Today it’s my prayer that we stop hiding and start being real with God, ourselves, and others.


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This conversation just popped up in my head about 20 minutes ago. If there is one thing I’ve learned, it’s that being inside my own head too long, never leads to any good. • • Life lately has been stressful. Work has become a much more stressful environment lately for certain reasons. Finding land to build my first home on has been stressful. Deciding where to buy, how far is it from work, church, and other decisions that I must make. Moving out of my Grandmothers home that is going up for sale this week. Where will I live while I wait for my house to be built? And other life issues have been weighing on me lately. My head is in over thinking Hell! • • I know enough to know I’m not the only one spending too much time thinking lately, and not enough time with God. It’s far too easy to allow the stressors of this life to take center stage in our minds. And left unchecked for too long, I know and have lived out the devastating effects of that. • • Today we need to check in on our thoughts. Examine the ways we are spending our time in our own heads. Are we allowing the worst “what if’s” to play out over and over again? Are we ruining our day before it begins with negative poisonous thoughts and scenarios? Or are we coming into the presence of the Lord, asking for help to keep our minds on Him? • • Mark 12:30, “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.” • • We know we can’t serve two masters. And though fear is not an absence of faith, it is hard to live out faith when we are totally surrendering to fear. So let’s get out of our own head today, and into the presence and heart of the Lord. ♥️


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Toady and everyday as we pray, as we talk to God, as we approach the altar, me we not be timid. May we not be afraid to ask. And May we trust God with the answer. But May we also take prayer as a time to grow in our relationship with God. As with any relationship, the more you communicate genuinely, the closer you grow together. I hope and pray you have a great and joyful Monday! ♥️👊🏻


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I spent some time with this precious little guy yesterday while his parents went and enjoyed a night out. As I walked around their beautiful home, playing with their adorable son, I couldn’t help for a moment feel a little sad and bitter. But then I quickly remembered that my life is blessed in its own ways. • • It can be difficult to remember at times to see our own blessings when our hearts ache for things not yet held by us. My strongest desire has always been to be a wife and mother. To have a home with the man I love and the little ones we both love. As I go through the years passing, it can get harder and harder not seeing this desire come true. If I didn’t know any better I would swear either I did too much wrong (I don’t deserve this) or God doesn’t love me like He loves others. • • John 3:16 to me is not only a promise of salvation, but a promise that God loves you and I as equally as He does anyone else. It’s not “God so loved some of the world that He sent His son”. It doesn’t leave us to figure out if we are one who is loved by God. So that right there destroys the lie that we don’t have because maybe God doesn’t love us. • • And if God loves you and I as much as any other, than His promises are for you and I as well. Jeremiah 29:11 that God knows the plans He has. Psalm 139 16-17 is the same for you and I “Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book, before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them!” • • Today my charge to myself and anyone reading this is first not to miss our blessings while looking at others lives. Second not to lose hope as we continue to wait on the Lord. And third that we never look to our circumstances to determine Gods love for us. That we never believe God works on a merit system. If He did the cross wouldn’t have been for everyone. Even the thief next to Jesus knew better than that. (Luke 23:43-43) Let’s continue to walk this journey with God through it all.


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Yes! If you know, give God a great Amen this morning! • • Though this meme is cute and funny, being in the dark (blind) is no laughing matter. If you have ever had your own dark season, you understand that truth very well. We also know dark can never win over the light of God. • • The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has never put it out. God sent his messenger, a man named John, who came to tell people about the light, so that all should hear the message and believe. He himself was not the light; he came to tell about the light. This was the real light—the light that comes into the world and shines on all people. (John 1:5-9) • • I have lived out my own personal dark season. One where I saw no hope. That is until I surrendered fully to God. Then the light that had always been there could finally be seen by me. I was blind but now I see! • • Today it’s my prayer that anyone in a dark place surrender to God. Let His light back in! I can promise you this, no matter how hopeless you feel right now, that will change once you let go and let God! I know it sounds too good to be true, I also know all too well it’s not. It’s too good and it’s too true! Again I never promise immediate change in your life, but a change in your heart. Peace amongst the chaos not an end to your chaos. It’s trusting God to walk with you through this season in life until you get to the next. And trust me the next season does come so do not give up! 🙌🏻


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I am so excited to be collaborating with @chloeselah tonight (well technically Saturday morning 12:00 midnight) on why sharing our story is so important. If you have read enough of my posts, you know this is a big part of my platform. Thank you @chloeselah for wanting to talk with me. Now I just have to be awake and make sense at midnight! 👊🏻♥️


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You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. (Psalm 139:5-12) • • Oh these words give me such a peace this morning. I was listening to a song yesterday that said something about God going before and behind us. My mind immediately thought about the middle. The part between our past that God is using, and the future God is creating. • • Friends, I will be honest with you, I am feeling neck deep in the middle these days. Holding onto hope with my fingertips at times. This place where we know God is at work because of how far we have come, to getting to our version of land of milk and honey. The wilderness between being freed from our personal captives of fear, anger, addiction, perfectionism, and more, to the place where we see why it was all worth it. It’s real. The wilderness will test you as it is meant to prepare you for what’s coming. • • Today it’s my prayer we praise God for going behind and before, but embrace God in our middle. Providing for us as we go. Being with us as we go. That He is in all places and doesn’t leave us. That to Him there is no darkness because He is only light. That our wilderness is not as scary when we cling to the presence of God.


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“And with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.” Ephesians 6:15 • • I teach pre-k but it’s in a daycare setting. Meaning my school is 6 weeks to 6 years of age. And while I work with the oldest kids in the building, I go and snuggle the babies on my lunch break. It’s a job perk. I have watched a lot of little ones learning to walk in my 10 year career. I have cheered on a lot of new walkers. Even in their stumbling around, wobbly legs, and tendency to fall, everyone around them is cheering them on. Praising them for their valiant effort. Why do we tend to stop that for a person once they reach a certain age? And why can we be so hard on people who fall when learning daily better how to walk with God? • • Another cute thing about watching little ones learn how to walk is their reaction to shoes. Having something new on their feet. It’s a foreign concept to them. It’s also something for them to take off a thousand times a day. But as caregivers or parents what do we do, we help them put them back on again. We don’t say, “That’s it! That’s the last time you ever get to wear shoes again!” As new believers the concept of peace is new. Having our feet fitted with readiness is new to us. And we will take our “shoes” off more than once before we learn to walk with more steadiness. • • There are people right now trying. They are trying to do better. To learn and to grow. Unfortunately there is someone who is pointing out their falling down, more than those few steps taken before that fall. Learning to do anything is rarely a seamless process. So why do we expect to go from addict to fully recovered with no setbacks. Or any other harmful habit? Why do we expect a person who suffers anxiety to simply stop worrying right then and there? Why are we sometimes hardest on the ones who need our kindness the most? Ourselves! • • Today it’s my prayer that you stop being so hard on yourself. See yourself as a new walking baby. Yes your legs maybe wobbly. Yes your new shoes of peace may feel foreign. Yes you may fall some more before you take off! But each step forward is a success! God is with you no matter what! So be confident in Him today!


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Is anything worth more than your soul? ‭‭Mark‬ ‭8:37‬ ‭NLT‬‬ #KnowYourTrueWorth🥰#godswordistruth #youmatter #believe


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When people approached Jesus in His time on earth, they did it with an urgency. They were desperate to touch His robe, or be touched by Him and be healed. They were very open, honest, raw even about their need for Him. Even when told by some to be quiet, they never stopped calling out until they were heard in the crowd by Him. Some even sent a friend in through a roof. Getting to Jesus, being healed, was way too important to them to pretend they didn’t need Jesus. But what about at church today? • • I myself have seen way too much pride being shown in church. Some of it shown by me in the past. Some of us go to church and act as if we are doing God a favor by being there. We hide our need for Jesus, and dare not speak out our need for healing. Sure we may ask for prayers for others, and maybe certain requests for ourselves. But how many of us would stand up in front of the crowd at the altar and admit their own version of “bleeding for years” type requests. Why do some of us feel as if we can’t bring our worst to church? • • I could speculate, but I won’t. Why we don’t rush the altar, fall down, and bring our toughest requests. Why we hide them in the crowd. Like I said I have been guilty of this too in the past, but it’s time it stops. It’s time we go back to being so hungry for the healing only Jesus can bring, that we don’t care who knows our deepest need. It’s time pride take a backseat to genuine faith and healing. • • Church is not a place to come to in our best dressed pretending we don’t need to be there. It’s not a social call or obligation. Church is a place for the broken to come and leave less broken than when they walked in. It’s a place to come and be honest about our desperate need for the cross. It’s a time to come into the presence of Jesus, cry out our needs, and be heard. It’s a time to worship. It’s a time to listen to Gods word and be transformed by it. • • This is not meant to be a condemning post. It’s meant to remind us that we should be able to scream out “I’m bleeding” and be healed. No matter what is causing us to. That we should be able to be genuine in our need for Jesus while in His house. ♥️


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🙋🏻‍♀️ I would not be the woman I am becoming daily, writing, speaking openly about my faults, without my painful season. I’d still be that scared little girl inside hiding, hoping, praying, no one ever finds me. And the thought of that is scarier than what I went through, as hard as it was. • • None of us want to fall down. None of us want to have to be pressed in order for new wine to be produced. Most, no, all of us if we were being totally honest, would want our miracles, harvest seasons, and blessings to flow quickly and easily. To simply appear as they did with Jesus’s first miracle. But we all know that’s rarely how it goes. God must first mold us into new wine skins before He can pour out the new wine. If not our old ways would not hold up, and it all would leak out and be wasted. Most of us have to be made ready first. • • I will always be one who wants others to share their story. To stand up proud and admit their own pruning season. Their own rising from the ashes story. Because they let us all know that we are not alone. That we are not the only one who is not an overnight success. That we are not the only one who learned how to stand firm by falling. Yes it’s beautiful to be able to say we survived. It’s even more beautiful to share how and that hope with others. • • I will tell you my rising began when I totally surrendered to God. When I dropped my need to be right. When I dropped my need to be in control. When I dropped my need to be seen as having it all together by others. When I could finally let out the scared, fragile, little girl inside. When I could love her and no longer be ashamed of her. It’s not our perfections that bring us closer, it’s bonding over our faults that does. Showing one another how to move past them into a healthier life. • • “Lord, please help us today with strength and a will to accept our hard seasons, to not rush them. To understand and accept they are preparing us for new that’s coming. Surround us with your presence giving us a peace that only comes through surrender to You. God it’s hard, it hurts, it’s scary, and at times seems unending. Help us to lean into You, trusting You know better. In Jesus name. Amen”


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A little reminder today that light shines best through the cracks! It’s through our own brokenness that we know how to help others. How to show them a better way. That healing and hope are possible. Not that we have to have it all figured out, but that we can lean on the One Who does. • • For most of my life I had this insane idea that I had to be perceived as perfect in order to have any impact. I’ve had more impact in my own life and others by showing how imperfect I am. That I struggle in many different areas. My not so whole self, is lighting up way more than my fake whole self ever did! • • Today if you’re having that same crazy thought, that you are too broken to help anyone, please know that’s not true. Even right now you have more to offer than you think. No it’s not a call to force yourself into something, but rather to believe you are still worth something. And when the time is right, you share that something with someone else. • • “Dear Lord, please help me see today that even here, in my low place, I am worthy. That I can be and am raised up by you and the blood of Jesus. Help me remember that your light is seen best through my brokenness. For it’s there your strength shines through. Thank you for loving me where I am today, and loving me enough to not leave me here. In Jesus name. Amen”


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This is me today. Maybe it’s you too. I am feeling overwhelmed at the process of purchasing my first home. And though it’s a huge blessing, it comes with a lot of decisions. Decisions I don’t always feel equipped to make. • • Luckily I’m blessed with an amazing support system filled with people I know love me and will help me. But they can’t keep me out of my own head, fears, and feelings. That’s a job for the Holy Spirit. And this week I haven’t been so good at letting the Holy Spirit do its job. • • Whatever you might be facing today, if you find yourself spending too much looking inside yourself, join me in this prayer. “Holy Spirit please help me to be still. Please help me to listen and really hear you. Please help me to trust the same God that has always been with me, still is, even in my uncertainties. Holy Spirit enter my spirit and calm the waves raging in me today. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.” • • And remember it’s okay to feel how you feel but it’s not okay to wallow there. Be honest, add what you need to your own prayer. Allow the presence of the Holy Spirit to calm you today. Even if you have to pray minute by minute. ♥️


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He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” • • This is a continuing look into fear from my post a couple days ago. This head cold of mine unfortunately is making reading and thinking very difficult. So I will be posting on this next week. The little reading I have done I will say is already causing me to rethink my original purpose for this post. I always want to be totally genuine in what I write with God. • • This is a problem though I believe plagues many believers. A way some have been turned away from God all together, or at least from His church. • • I’d love to hear your thoughts on this? How this may have been a problem in the past for you or maybe is a problem today. I’ll admit I struggle with these. Leading to sometimes this thought, “Am I not getting this or that because I don’t have enough faith?” • • I look forward to diving more into this when my head doesn’t feel like it weighs 100 lbs. Till then I am praying for your faith no matter where you are in that walk. ♥️


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Once you carry your own burdens (and stop dumping them on other folks), you will learn the value and lesson in each one of them. #carryyourownweight #learnthevalue #learnandgrow #knowyourtrueworth #POETRYLADIE #POEMSBTSTEPHANIE #POEMSINTHEKEYOFLIFE


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We had a sermon this past Sunday of facing the giant of fear. And my pastor said something that really spoke to me. I thought I’d share. • • She actually asked me the Friday night before what I thought the opposite of fear was. Like most of us followers of Christ would say, I said faith. On Sunday she answered that question but with a totally different answer. Certainty. Wow! Right there my perspective changed. And it’s so true. If we were certain what was going to happen, we wouldn’t need faith. Faith is what gets us through our fears. Allows us to be scared but show up anyway. This one sentence totally freed me! • • Truth be told there is a lot of uncertainty in life. Whether you are a believer or not. And there are reasons to have fear. It’s what we do with those fears that can either grow or hinder our relationship with God, and with others. So please know this today, your fear does not determine your faith. It’s your willingness to surrender it to God in faith that He will be with you that does. • • My friend, fear and I have had a long term relationship. One where we break up but then reunite. You know on Facebook our relationship would be “it’s complicated.” I for one am done fighting a fight I can’t win! So I waive the white flag of surrender daily. Here are my fears Lord, I know You will be with me through them. • • I always like to say I don’t know what you’re facing. Some fears are way bigger than others. I have found in my biggest fears, God has always been BIGGER. It’s my prayer you will allow Him to be the same for you today.


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Excuse the handwriting I know how bad it is. 🤦🏻‍♀️ But just as God can read my sometimes all too jumbled up heart, He can read this writing of mine too. • • I finally started after a sermon about a month ago, keeping a grateful journal. I now have a quiet time routine as well. I now start with worship music. I write out my, “5 things I am grateful for today” list while listening to the last worship song. Then I read out loud my list to start my prayer time. I end with reading Gods word. This is helping me to focus my time with God. To look for blessings daily and thank Him for them. • • Today I am not feeling well physically. My issues stemming from my illness a few years back is really acting up today. In fact since Friday really. But this morning I’m still going to write out my grateful list. I’m still going to worship and praise and read and trust in God’s word. Why some might ask? Well because it’s what’s gotten me this far! What has allowed and helped me to heal way more than the pain in my body today might suggest. It’s also lead me to a peace like I’ve never known, and a hope like I’ve never felt. Even in the midst of the unknown and pain. • • Today even if you don’t feel like it, I encourage you to sit down and listen to some worship music. Write down what you’re thankful for, even if it’s one thing alone. Praise God for your list, then bring to Him your rest. Your anger, frustration, pain, hopelessness, addiction, and more. He will help you if you allow Him in. I know cause He healed me when nothing else could. Not only my body but my heart and mind too. May our list of gratitude grow as our relationship with God grows too. ♥️


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God used food twice this week to help me remember these two things. He does know me very well. 😂 I’m not saying He caused these things to happen, but He surely helped me see them in this much bigger context. First bigger context: “Even in my human lack God still provides”. I had forgot my pocket book at home this past Monday as I went to work. Knowing this when I left work I still stopped by Chick Fil A for dinner. It wasn’t till after I ordered and pulled up I remembered I had no way of paying. I did however have enough rewards points for a free Sandwich and Medium Fry. So that’s what I ate for dinner that night. I jokingly said to my co-worker, “My mana was Chick Fil A!” 🙌🏻 This very human moment was used to remind me that God has always provided for me. (This was big this week for me which I’ll share why at the end) • • Bigger context number 2: “Sometimes what I want is not what’s best” The other day I went to Panera for a breakfast sandwich wrap. I ordered my favorite the Maple Bacon with egg and cheese. When I got to work what I had been given was not that. At first I was unhappy but thankful I had food. What I bit into was so delicious I might have a new favorite! This was used to remind me I don’t always know what’s best. To not get so one sided that I miss out on something that might be even better! (This too was needed for this week.) • • Here is how it all came together. I was hoping to purchase my Grandmothers home from my family. My heart was set on it. I got great news this week. News that proved how God is still providing. He had helped me make a way to being able to purchase a home. On my own! Unfortunately not my Grandmothers home. This is where I must remember Panera, how what I got was really good and even better than what I had ordered. God used two very little things to help me see the big picture last night as I made my tough decision. • • I don’t know what you’re facing today. What you’re hoping for, trusting for. I simply want to encourage you to look for ways God is showing you that He is with you. That He knows what we need. And to trust that even if it’s not what we ordered, it’s still going to be okay. God is always with us.


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Two men met in 1945. Both professors of their faith and evangelists for God. They became friends and even roomed and ministered together in 1946 in Europe for an Evangelistic tour. But something changed, something happened for both men that lead them down different paths. • • In Templetons book “Farewell to God he recounts the conversation with Graham where there differences came to a head and chose the trajectory of their life. Here is a small part, “ All our differences came to a head in a discussion which, better than anything I know, “explains” Billy Graham and his phenomenal success as an evangelist... “Most of them, yes,” he said. “But that is not the point. I believe the Genesis account of creation because it’s in the Bible. I’ve discovered something in my ministry: When I take the Bible literally, when I proclaim it as the word of God, my preaching has power. When I stand on the platform and say, ‘God says,’ or ‘The Bible says,’ the Holy Spirit uses me. There are results. Wiser men than you or I have been arguing questions like this for centuries. I don’t have the time or the intellect to examine all sides of the theological dispute, so I’ve decided once for all to stop questioning and accept the Bible as God’s word.” “But Billy,” I protested, “You cannot do that. You don’t dare stop thinking about the most important question in life. Do it and you begin to die. It’s intellectual suicide.” “I don’t know about anybody else,” he said, “but I’ve decided that that’s the path for me.” • • Years later in a interview by Lee Strobel Templeton would break down weeping at how much he missed Jesus. In his words I adore him!” . . . Uh . . . but . . . no,’ he said slowly, ‘he’s the most . . .” He stopped, then started again. “In my view,” he declared, “he is the most important human being who has ever existed.” But soon after that declared “that’s enough of that.” • • Doubts hardened Templetons heart into unbelief. Doubts softened Graham’s heart into unwavering belief. Graham took his doubts to God, in honesty declaring them. God turned his doubts into a platform for the Holy Spirit. The choice is always ours to with our doubts what we please. May we choose wisely.


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Ohhh that doubting Thomas. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Today as I talk again about doubt, specifically how it does not have to be a faith killer, I’ll be diving a little into his story. This was one of my favorite parts in our sermon last Sunday. • • Here is the scripture most of us know and quote at times when discussing doubting. “But he said to them, “Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.” (John 20:25) Yes Thomas was looking for proof. He wanted to see with his own eyes. But he never said Jesus didn’t exist, wasn’t who He said He was. Thomas was guarding himself I believe against the warning Jesus gave at the Mount of Olives. “Jesus answered: “Watch out that no one deceives you. 5 For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah,’ and will deceive many.” (Matthew 24:4-5) • • Knowing that Thomas needed a closer encounter with Him Jesus gave him exactly that, Then Jesus said to Thomas, “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.” (John 20:27) • • If you find yourself doubting in Jesus today. Doubting in your situation today. Doubting in what is true today. Ask Jesus for a close encounter with Him. Tell Him as Thomas did exactly what you need. Ask to feel His presence like never before. I myself have had several moments where I could not deny my need to know He was in my circumstances was answered. • • Don’t allow doubts to become a killer of your faith. I’ll be discussing tomorrow two more current people who faced the same doubts, but one chose to take them to God. And trust me you know who this man is. Until then pray through your doubts straight into faith! Remember doubt asks questions, it’s unbelief that refuses to hear the answer. So be open to hearing from God today. ♥️


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Extremely doubtful is a synonym used for this term. That’s the phrase I want to focus on today. For two different reasons. • • First of all I believe we all have at least 1 if not more inconceivables in our life. (It might even be ourself. But more on that in a minute)We have that person who always has a way something can’t work or can’t happen. You go to them with hope in your voice and heart, but leave them with despair and doubts. Though they probably mean well, not wanting you to get hurt, they can’t see they are hurting you. Guard your dreams! It’s time to stop allowing others to tell us what is and is not possible in our life! That’s not their job! • • But what if we can be the biggest inconceivable in our life at times? 🙋🏻‍♀️ Does doubting what God can or is doing mean we don’t have faith? This was the message at church this past Sunday and it gave me such hope. Hope I want to now share with you. I’ll leave you with this today, and go further tomorrow, “Doubt is not the enemy of faith, unbelief is.” And this, “Doubts ask questions, unbelief refuses to hear the answers.” • • I will be going further into this this week. I believe doubt is a huge faith killer simply because we believe it is. Until then please know you can take all your doubts to God today. In fact He wants you to. He wants to show you how conceivable the inconceivable is!


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