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“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection!" #frecklesarereal #loveyourself #knowyourtrueworth #memyselfandi #notafraidtogetold #goodnight


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Finding it very difficult to sleep tonight. Been up quite a bit. But this time for a great reason. Well one, that nap I took probably. 🤷🏻‍♀️😊 But second, because in a couple of weeks I’m gonna be a homeowner y’all! Or a home mortgager. Whichever! I will be given a key to a place all my own! • • Today I want to encourage the one reading this who feels where they are right now, is the only place for them. That’s not true. 4 years ago if you had asked me, I would have told you my life was over. Now I am about to have land and a home that’s mine. I am helping others see a way out of their dark circumstances and surroundings. I am loving others and they are loving me back. I’m living a life that seemed impossible to me 4 years ago. But not impossible to God. • • Whether you choose to believe I was saved by faith and surrendering to God is up to you. I know I was. I know how hopeless I had become until I said yes to letting go and letting God. I don’t care how cliche that is. I thank God that He didn’t look to where I was to determine where I was going to go! With some effort on your part. Yes it does take work. The catch is that the work load is lighter when you do it with God. Allowing Him to do the heavy lifting. Also find at least one person who will help you on this side of Heaven. Support is key here. Where you are right now does not have to be where you stay! • • Today it’s my hope and prayer that anyone who wants to and is willing, allows God to help them. Allows others to help them. And allows themselves to let go. Surrender whatever it is that’s got you. Then in time see where that gets you. ♥️


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This is not specifically about marriage vows. There are many ways this saying can be used. Love is too big to pigeon hole into marriage only. Today, because my heart is with those who spent yesterday without that someone special, I’m going to focus on two specific loves. Self love and the love of God for us. • • First the love of God for us. I know in my case understanding this had to come before I really understood self love. Gods love is the perfect example of a love that endures the worst yet loves us best. The, “I can handle this”, the “I don’t need you for this”, “You’re not enough”, “You’re moving too slow” and other things we can tell Him. We throw our worst at Him and He loves us to our best. • • I think of Saul here. How God met Him on Demascus Road, and brought Him to be used big time for Him. Maybe an example of today’s Demascus road can be addiction of any kind, anxiety, depression, cheating on a spouse, stealing from others, bullying others, and more. The bottom line is this, none of us have to be defined by our worst. Not when we have a God who sees the best in us. All of us have more to offer than what we believe we do. • • Then self love. Loving who you are, where you are, even if both aren’t what you hoped they would be. I’ll say it time and time again, we fight harder for what we love than what we hate. When we allow Gods love in that self love becomes much easier. God has shown me that I’m worth that greatest love of all. Even when my worse wins out for a bit. I can allow myself to see that I am trying and that’s enough for today. • • Today I hope you allow yourself to love yourself, even if you’re at your worse. See that you are trying. See that God sees you where you are but also sees where you are going. Not that it has to be somewhere big, but better! May love get you through your worse and see you all the way to your better! ♥️


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Happy Valentines Day! Red. Isn’t it an amazing color? And I have to say this will forever be one of my favorite pics of me. ♥️ • • I was listening to EMF, “You’re unbelievable” the other day. Man! I hadn’t heard that song in a long time. The part that says those two words got stuck in my head. That happens to me a lot unfortunately. My brain is where music goes to not die but live. 🤦🏻‍♀️ But it did spark a thought in me. So I want to say to you today... You’re UNBELIEVABLE! • • That way to show up everyday when you really want to lay down and give up. That way you keep going when anyone would understand if you didn’t. That way you smile at someone to brighten their day even though your heart is breaking. Simply because you don’t want them to feel bad today. That way you have bounced back again and again even though you’re tired of feeling like life’s punching bag. That way you refuse to allow any of the above or anything else change your heart. You my friend are a gift from God. You are priceless. You are unbelievable! • • Today no matter if you have a special valentine or not, I hope you surrender to two amazing loves. First, the love of Jesus. The gift of love of the cross. I pray it shows you your true worth. And second a true love for yourself. For your bravery even when you feel scared to move, but you move anyway. For your BIG heart that still holds so much for others. I pray today your BIG heart holds some love for yourself. • • Ephesians 2:10, “For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.” ♥️


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I think a lot of us can relate to this sentiment. Most of the time the hardest part of doing anything is simply getting up and getting started. So much time is wasted. So much energy is wasted,simply by overthinking how bad or hard something MIGHT be to do. • • For me this was never truer than when I had to decide whether to get back up again or stay down in the pit I found myself in. Sounds silly to say. But if we are honest with ourselves, it’s easier to stay in the low places sometimes, then to dare believe there is better. For me I had to acknowledge first where I had gotten myself to, whether I meant to or not, that didn’t matter anymore. Then I had to be willing to do what I hadn’t done in a while, get up! Stop allowing pain, stop allowing fear, stop allowing anything to keep me from the life waiting for me out of bed. Or in my instance off the couch. 🤷🏻‍♀️ • • There is unhealthy fear and healthy fear. A healthy fear will keep us from doing something stupid. For example, “don’t touch that hot stove because you will get burned” Unhealthy fear will tell us, “don’t turn on the stove you might get burned.” See the difference? • • It’s time we stop allowing unhealthy fear to run our lives. It’s time to stop living a cold less than life because believing in or going after more might get us hurt. It might! But you know what, so will living a life that’s far less than it could be. It’s time to live a red hot life, but making clear cut decisions on how we should do that. For me that’s one of the biggest things I go to God for. I don’t know what’s meant for my life. What’s always best for it. I’ve proven that by touching too many hot stoves. 🤦🏻‍♀️ But with God I get up! I continue to show up! Even when I wanna stay in bed. • • Picking ourselves up again is not easy work. Not something to be done alone. I always say you need God and the right people! Also know that if today you can’t make it out of bed, you still have amazing worth! Cry out today. Psalm 6:6, “I am weary with my groaning; All night I make my bed swim; I drench my couch with my tears.” Do what you can today then do a little tomorrow! Then there will come a time when God will rise you up! ♥️


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Maybe you’ve been there before too! You think you are doing so well, then you or something shifts, and the view changes. This isn’t a post on flat stomachs, but on one of thinking you’re one way, then something in your life shifts. • • For instance, if you had asked me 5 years ago or more if I was an anxious person, I would have told you no. With great confidence at that. Then something in my life shifted. And the anxiety I had been blind to for years, came pouring out of me. It was as if I couldn’t even recognize the woman staring back at me in the mirror. The usually have it all together person I had been, was now nothing more than a big ball of worry and fear. • • Maybe you believe you have it all together today. Maybe you do. Maybe that list of things to get done to feel accomplished you keep checking is okay for you. Maybe that 1,000th th thought of “what if” is not hurting you at all. Maybe that good nights rest you haven’t had in weeks because your mind won’t shut off is not getting to you at all. Or maybe it is hurting you way more than you can see. • • That’s just a few of the things I dealt with in my life before I cracked. Sure I would have some good moments in between. Nights of sleep this week but not that week. A day or two where I didn’t overthink EVERYTHING! But nothing compared to the peace I have now. Unfortunately it came at a price. • • I don’t want that for you. For anyone. I don’t want peace to come at the price of yourself or others. Well except to the one Who already paid it, Jesus. His sacrifice paid for your freedom! • • If you could relate at all to my short list of symptoms, please don’t ignore that today. Find someone to talk to. Don’t wait for something to shift in your life that forces you to see it. That’s the absolute hardest way to be faced with something like anxiety. It’s okay to admit you are anxious. Life throws us things that can be tough to understand and handle. Also cry out to God to help you gently see where fear is winning over faith. Then allow Him and others to love you through it. Peace is possible! I’m proof of that! ♥️


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I am so excited to share this message today. What started as a blank piece of paper that taunted me, turned into a beautiful message of forgiving yourself. And it is all possible through the word written on that piece of wood. That’s a prop for the end of the message. •I want to encourage anyone who is struggling to forgive themselves today. I have had to do the same so I know what that is like. No matter what the voices say, you can be forgiven. By God, by yourself, and sometimes even by the ones we have hurt. But that’s up to them, and should in no way hinder you or I from showing ourselves some grace. •Yes we should always own up to how we have hurt others or ourselves. Face those actions and sincerely apologize. Repent. But once that’s been done, it’s time to stop carrying it around. It blocks blessings y’all! Trust me, I know! •If you’d like to watch live you can go to ignitedurham on FB around 11:15. We go live after worship. I am so in love with the words God gave me to share today. I can only hope they are used to inspire others the way they inspire me each time I read them. ♥️


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Makes me wanna scream sometimes! How I think I’ve not moved past something, but worked through something, then a memory hits me. Doesn’t have to be one for FB, it can be from my own memory bank. This happened to me yesterday and it hit me way harder than I would have expected it to. • • Today I simply want to encourage those of you who are grieving. Encourage you to know that you are not the only one who feels at times you should have better control of how something effects you by now. Or maybe that’s just me. 🤷🏻‍♀️ One thing I am learning is that yes time does help, if we use that time wisely, but loss is loss. And sorrow is a part of loving someone. And loss and sorrow have no exportation date. Neither do the hopes and dreams you shared with someone. Neither do the tears that fall when you are reminded of what you once had. It’s not about healing completely, it’s about being able to see the beauty in life as it stands. Even amidst the grief. • • I have a friend @jrwillis100days who is doing just that. She is using the flowers from her moms funeral for 100 days to create amazing pictures with. She decided to use them to help herself and others see beauty come from a place of pain. That it is possible. WRAL just featured a story on her. I invite you to check her out! • • Today let’s not so much focus on getting past something, or through our grief. Instead let’s lean into it and allow it to create something in us. Maybe an appreciation for what still is. Maybe some beautiful art like my friend Janet. Maybe some words of hope for someone else hurting. Just as God creates beauty from ashes, we can too. Please know my heart is with you today. I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling. I am cheering you on in spirit and in prayer. Remember healing is not a race, it’s a journey. And it can be a beautiful one at times, just as my friend Janet is proving. ♥️


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This new song from Casting Crowns, “Love Moved First” is one of the best songs I’ve heard to date. • • “This is the story of a runaway With no way home and no way out I threw the best of me away I had my chance, it's too late now Too far gone and too ashamed To think that You'd still know my name But love refused to let my story end that way You didn't wait for me to find my way to You I couldn't cross that distance even if I wanted to You came running after me When anybody else would've turned and left me at my worst Love moved first” • • I know where God found me. I know the darkness, the confusion, the fear that had taken over. I know the years I spent getting a lot wrong. I know how easy it could have been to give up on me. But God NEVER did! • • I don’t know where you’re at today, but you can be rest assured that God does. And you know what, it doesn’t scare Him. God can take the worst of you and I. And even when we can’t change it ourself, He can. We just gotta be willing to let Him. • • The cross is proof that God made the first move. It is a message of love like no other. That even while we were still sinners Christ died for us. For YOU! It’s not an invitation to stay where you are, even though God loves us right where we are. But it’s an invitation to live life free of all that’s hurting you. Hurting your family and friends. Free from anything that’s got you to the place you are right now. • • So if today you find yourself feeling alone in your own dark place, know God sees you. Love sees you. And is ready to rescue you. All you have to do is say, Lord I’m ready now. Come do in my life what only you can. Then find someone else to help you too. Gods love moves first, but we also need others to help us. Don’t be scared, we all have things that we’d rather keep hidden. That’s what connects us most. That we’ve been rescued one way or another by God. ♥️


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You hear people saying things like, “Life is best lived backwards but must be lived forward.” And it’s true. Unfortunately. If I knew then what I know now, I would have done a lot of things differently. But I can’t. You can’t. We must move forward knowing what we know now. • • If life is looked at as a test sometimes, I’m glad to know I can use my book. There have been several times where I have felt stuck in the last 4 years now, and opening my Bible has helped me figure my way to being unstuck. I may not have always liked what I read, it’s not easy doing things the way I should as a Christ follower, but I have loved the results! I’m happy also to say I’m no longer striving for that 100, I have left the pursuit of perfection behind me. I am striving to do the best I can. Then where I lack, I go to the author of the word. Together we are improving me and my life day by day. • • I am also happy to be able to say this morning I completed my quest to read the Bible cover to cover! It took a while, but I got there! Next I am reading it again but in a chronological Bible. The Bible is not a one and done kind of book. It’s a daily guide of how to live in peace, grace, forgiveness,hope,repentance, and more. It’s our guide to joy book! • • I do not encourage someone new to reading the Bible to start cover to cover. I didn’t. This was years in the making. I do however encourage you to start somewhere! Start in the New Testament. Read the 4 Gospels. Not as a race, or something to accomplish, but as a reminder of how loved you are. How sacrifice was made on your behalf. • • Once we get into the word more it becomes easier to live it out. To stop doing what we shouldn’t be doing, and start doing the things we need. Peace comes at a price. Jesus Paid it. It’s time to open our Bibles and fully understand and accept that. Life may get hard, but we get to do it open book and open hands up to God.


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And the cup is your life... • • This morning I felt led to pray for those who right now see lack in their life. I know that it can become difficult to believe in God or His love for you the bigger and longer your lack seems to last. This can be anything that is missing from your life really. However some are harder to live with and deal with than others. • • To the one still waiting on a child. To the one still waiting on that job so you can feed your family. To the one still waiting on a spouse. To the one who lost a spouse or child and now feel a vast void. To those nurturing big hurts today, my heart is with you. And God is with you too. • • This isn’t a post on “it’s coming your way.” I don’t know that. Only God does. And I know from personal experience how irritating it can become when others try to tell you to wait, all you want is coming your way. They mean well. But... • • Today I want to talk to you about a different abundance. But one I talk about frequent. As hard as it can be at times, living in gratitude is the fastest way to go from “I’m lacking”, to an abundant life. Look for all that is around you. Even when it’s hard. The love that does surround you. Those willing to help feed your family as you keep going after a job or career. Those sent to be a source of strength when we are feeling weak. From small to large look for the good in your life. I of course suggest writing them down. Then when it is too difficult one day to think of any, you can go and read your blessings out loud. • • Yes there is pain associated with lack and loss. This isn’t about taking that away but more about replacing it with joy. A heart that looks for what it has. Even if it’s having to do it through a stream of tears. My prayers are with you today. May abundance soon be where currently you see lack. Cry out to God today to help you. He helps me daily. He will you too. ♥️


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Have you been there? I know I have. I have come to terms with big ways people may not “like” me or believe I’m not worth their time. For example, I’m all for someone not being in my life if they can’t respect my boundaries. I’ll gladly watch you walk away. But at the same time I can feel hurt very easily if I think I have upset a coworker and that’s why they didn’t say hi in the hallway. 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ • • Look all of us are human and require other humans in our lives to live a full life. None of us can do that alone. Not particular kinds of relationships necessarily, but some relationships none the less. We can try and say all day that we don’t care AT ALL what anyone else thinks of us. But it’s not true. • • The trick I’ve learned comes down to balancing them with how we see ourselves, how God sees us, and how much we read into things that probably have nothing to do with us. Sometimes a bad day for someone else is just as possible as a bad day is for us. It’s not personal most of the time I have learned. • • So why am I talking about this today? Because I know someone out there is not living their best life and a part of it is because of the energy they are using for little things. I know because I was that person. I still can be at times yes, but not nearly as much. And when I am, I can see it faster now and work through it faster. None of us can live a full life if we are always deflated by every action of others. But how can you stop? • • For me it came with time. It came with talking to someone about all I was feeling. Getting through all my emotional baggage. Taking time in my Bible. Making God first in my life. Surrounding myself with worship music that reinforced Gods words of my worthiness. Doing things that might scare me but build my self confidence and esteem. Setting boundaries and then allowing some to walk away because of them. While also being honest with myself when I wanted to give in. Being honest with God too. Working it out with Him instead of negative self talk of being weak. Then learning I could not give in!!! 🙌🏻🙌🏻 I want that for everyone. A balanced emotional life. One lived genuine, not behind an "I don’t care” mask.


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Yes!! I have been “guilty” of this too. Thanking God for that “miracle” parking spot. Maybe not this eloquently though. 😂 • • I’m going to share with you something I do that helps keep God at the center of my life. Maybe someone today who wants to keep God at their own center, can take something away from this. That would be awesome! Maybe you have something you do that could help someone reading this today too. • • I talk to God all the time. I thank Him for green lights that keep me going. Literal green traffic lights. I ask Him for patience as I get stopped at red lights that NEVER seem to turn green. Talk to Him then about my time management. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I ask God what do I feel like eating tonight. If I laugh at something on the tv I say, “now that was funny” while looking up to Him. I converse with my Lord all the time. It might seem silly to some or absurd, but I promise it has great consequences to it. • • See the more you or I make God a part of our lives, the easier it becomes to go to Him when we need Him most. The more organic it is to talk to Him, the easier it will become to pray to Him. There is time for on our knees prayer. There is also time to simply have a conversation with the one who knows and loves us best. Now this isn’t something I do out in public. Just walk around taking to “myself”. But it is something I am willing to share publicly. Yes I talk to God. Not that I think His hand is in every green or red light or dinner decision I make. But they are opportunities for me to take time to talk to Him and when needed notice His hand in my life. • • Maybe what I do isn’t for you. That’s okay. What works for one will not always work for another. But if you desire God to be at the center of your choices and your life, you need to find a way that works for you. Ignoring His presence most of the time will not get Him where you’re wanting Him to be. With you. Not that He isn’t there, but it’s harder to notice someone you are ignoring. • • So if you choose to, go ahead and praise God for that parking spot! Then when needed you’ll more naturally be able to praise Him later on. In the good and in the storm! ♥️


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Y’all my co worker said this yesterday and I laughed so loud I can honestly say I Lol’d, not just type it. 🤣 But of course my mind has to go and take something funny and make a point out of it. 🤷🏻‍♀️ • • A big piece of my heart is with those who are still single or single again. Probably because I am 44 and never married. I understand the desire for partnership, intimacy, security, feeling wanted, and more. As I said yesterday to someone, my desire for all of that will never go away. But my need for it is diminishing day by day. There is a difference between desiring something and needing it to feel complete, whole, worthy, and loved. • • One would think the older we get the more desperate we should be. Making this meme true not simply funny. I can honestly say I am no where near as desperate as I was 20 years ago. How? By finally allowing myself to be fully loved by God. This allows me to fully see my worth. To fully love myself. To find ways to contribute to the world on my own that matter to me. To be intentionally aware of the love and support that is around me. To search for completeness within myself. A beautiful life is possible as a single. • • Yes loneliness can creep in. Yes thoughts at times of what’s wrong with me can creep in. All of what you’re thinking right now can creep in. However you and I don’t have to allow those things to control us. Learning to acknowledge our feelings without giving into them is possible with time and practice. You or I should never settle when it comes to anything, much less when it comes to a partner. • • Today my heart and prayer is with the one feeling so unloved, unseen, unknown, incomplete, and frustrated. Wondering why others and not them. These are tough emotions and thoughts to get through. To get past. • • “And the Lord, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed.” Deuteronomy 31:8. • • It’s a choice. To allow Gods love to show you how to love yourself, to love life, even when single. To not only wait but wait well. Enjoying who you are and ALL you have to offer this world. All on your own! I’m learning with you too! ♥️


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Yesterday was a sad day. No doubt. So much life lost in a second. And one life that many people knew and respected and loved. He brought a lot to a game many love. Also so many others yesterday said goodbye to ones they loved and never returned home. Others lost a fight to a health battle they had fought bravely. Life is marked for death for all of us. As horrible as it is. It’s true. All of us should live as if we were dying. • • Having come out of a severe health anxiety that stemmed from my time being sick, I know what it is to fear death. Now I thank God daily for each breath no matter how many are left. Each one is a gift. This allows me to acknowledge death but in a positive way. Thanking God for the life I am living one breath at a time. Instead of thinking on and fearing death, let’s dwell on and live life! • • I know fear is a huge factor for some. I’m currently reading a book that speaks directly on fear in one of its chapters. It says that either fear or freedom can win. But not both! I think if it as only fear or freedom can ring in our ears not both! We can either hear sounds of doom or sounds of victory. The choice though difficult at times is ours to make. • • Today my hope and prayer is for the one who is so afraid that life is passing them by. As we learned yesterday none of us have an infinite amount of time. Time is precious and should be treated as such. I am pointing at myself too. Go for that dream. Go for that love. Go for that friendship. Go after life! Need help? So do I sometimes. I reach up and out to God for the strength to keep going. To move ahead. To stop fearing a future that may or may not happen. To live one moment at a time, enjoying one moment at a time. Be blessed today! Live, laugh, love for today! ♥️


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I love this little guy! 🥰 • • I think we can all agree on two things. One, he is so stinkin adorable no matter what his true name is. 😂 And two, it’s harder than we’d like to admit at times to take our hands off the wheel and trust God to steer us in the right direction. Right direction being the way we want to go. • • I’ve learned through my vast experience of crashing and burning that I don’t always know the right way to go. I’m terrible with directions. There’s a song out right now that says, “You can take a few wrong turns still end up where you’re suppose to be.” I truly believe that! I have also had to accept however it’s not exactly where I saw myself going. That’s where surrender, faith, trust, and willingness, comes in. Surrender the picture I had in my mind. Have faith that Gods plan is the right one for me. Trust that even though I’ve messed up so many times, God can and will still get me there. A willingness to let go of my tight grip and allow my life to blossom as it is intended to. • • Yes with this I have had to mourn some things. Most of us do. Most of us don’t have our life go the way we wanted. I’m here to encourage both of us today that it’s not the end of our life though. As much as it hurts like hell, we can believe in better days to come. Maybe not like we wanted or what we thought it would look like, but still beautiful in its own way. • • You might be saying I have no idea what you’ve lost. And you’d be right. For some of us it’s a longer road of healing, but the road ahead can still be filled with good things. My prayer today is for those who are mourning what they wanted, while leaning into the life they will be lead to living. May your heart know the true protection and peace that only comes from God. ♥️


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You know you like that ice! 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻 Happy Friday my friends! May we all walk in that healing today. Don’t know how? Reach out and ask! If you’d like ask me below. I prayed this morning for all who need to walk in healing. To let go and move forward. ♥️


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Honesty time. The hardest part about writing a sermon, writing anything, is getting past the blank page. There is something just so terrifying about it to me. Words like, “This is the one you can’t write. This is the one that will prove you are a fluke. This is the one that will make you give up.” I’ve written a handful of sermons now, countless posts, blogs, and still I can feel like a fluke. Like I still have something to prove. When I know anything I write is not of me anyways. • • Tonight to the one who feels afraid of the unknown. Of the blank page that might seem like your life. Who is dealing with words of self mutilation. Negative self talk that is pushing you to quit. Push back! Join me tonight in telling those nay sayers, our own thoughts, to SHUT UP! GET BEHIND ME SATAN! I will arise victorious out of your ashes of lies and condemnation. • • It’s time we stop fearing the unknown. For even though my page is blank, Gods word is already written for us both. If God is for us, and HE IS! Then NO ONE can be against us! Not even ourselves! Cry out tonight for the strength needed to walk through your struggles right into the greatness ahead! If you’d like I always could use prayers when writing something of this magnitude. It never fails that the enemy throws me a few road blocks. Thank you. ♥️


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First let me say I know full well that anxiety is no laughing matter. But a sense of humor does go a long way. • • Having been shown the last few years now by God just how much anxiety had a grip on me, I can see how sacred I was of so may things because of it. To me anxiety can come at us in two different ways. You can have one or both. There is medical anxiety, one that requires medicine. And that’s okay. If your brain is wired a certain way that’s nothing to be ashamed of. Then there is situational anxiety. It can begin at childhood and grow into your adulthood. Situations and circumstances can cause great distress within our spirits. Leading us to fear the unknown and the unpredictable. • • Working with God and others I trust, I have been able to see how many choices I made out of my anxiety. Out of the fear(s) it created. Healing the wounds those choices made has helped me to start fresh with God. To finally be the new creation I am in Christ. No longer living in this perpetual state of denial and uneasiness. Finally able to make healthy decisions and set healthy boundaries that work for me. Though I’m not ready to test that theory with a bird in my face yet. 😂 • • Anxiety can hide in many forms. Overthinking a text or email. Saying yes always. Saying no always. Overanalyzing every word said to you. Going to the store taking all the strength you have out of fear of what could happen. Going over an interview again and again in your head until your phone rings. Hovering over your children allowing them no freedom to be children. Having a mental meltdown when they don’t text back within 5 minutes. And so much more. • • It’s been crazy to me to be able to look back and see all the signs I missed of my anxiety. I had gotten good at functioning in my dysfunction. Until I couldn’t anymore. • • Today my prayer is with the one who needs to be gently shown how anxiety is crushing them and their life. It’s not being a ducks in a row person, it’s being a everything has to be perfect person. And that is down right exhausting. Not to mention impossible. I pray you allow God to deliver you from anxiety has He continues to do for me. ♥️


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This is where trust comes in. This is where faith comes in. This is where going against human flesh comes in. This is where we go against what we are taught, to go after what we want without any regards to anything else. This is where a choice comes in. • • Don’t get me wrong, I am all for going after the life you want. However, for me I am not about doing it alone. I have decided to do life with God. That’s the choice I have made. In doing so, I have to decide daily to trust that He wants the best for me. Yes I get up, yes I show up, but I do not try to force something anymore. I do my best then pray over the rest. • • This is not easy. It’s getting easier but that does not equal easy. Sometimes my face can look like this little girl. But as my heart connects more and more to God, trust gets a little easier. I’m hoping one day it’s as natural to me as it is to some I am blessed to know. • • Now when I think about not trusting God, I can see it as fear. I’d like to share with you what fear means to me. FEAR Forgetting. Every. Awesome. Reminder. Forgetting the cross. Forgetting the resurrection. Forgetting all I have seen God do in my life up until this point. • • To those right now who are too caught up in their circumstances to allow this to penetrate, I completely understand. I don’t come to you as one who has gotten everything she wants. At 44 I’m still husbandless, childless, among some other things. I have had to work through a lot of pain and loss to get where I am today. And I have done that by choosing to see ALL the places God is working in my life. But I didn’t do it alone. You don’t have to either. Reach out for help. • • Today it’s my prayer that we stop allowing what the world or even ourselves say make us worthy, makes us whole. That we stop comparing our lives and our paths to others. That we cry out to God to help us trust His plans for us. Even if it looks like a hot mess right now. Let’s write out a few things we have already seen God do. Then go back to those when we feel that FEAR kicking in. Let’s silence the lies with the truth that God will fight for us. (Exodus 14:14)


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🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ I don’t know about y’all but I’m torn between reading this message or not. 😂😂😂


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Submission is the ability to lay down the terrible burden of always needing to get our own way. • • • Can we submit to God? Can we be obedient? Can we trust him? Because ultimately he has the best plan for us and he loves us so much. He calls us his sons and daughters.💗 • • #knowyourtrueworth #savedinhim #submit #sonsanddaughtersofchrist #jesuslovesyousomuch #godsaves #christlives #letyourlightshine


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Happy Monday everyone! I have a quick question for you as you prepare for your week ahead. What’s one thing use to do, that you wish you would or could start doing again? One thing that could help get you on track or back on track to the person you want to be. To the life you want to live? • • I’m using the word intentional for the rest of the year. To help me figure not only one thing, but hopefully a few things I want to do in order to go after the life I want without hesitation. This doesn’t have to mean being wildly successful from a worldly view, but from my own personal view. One thing I decided to be intentional on is reading. Bible reading aside I need to immerse myself more in the written word. A friend gave me this book and I have to say I love it already! • • I simply want to send out some encouragement. That going after the life we want can start small and easy. Pick one thing right now that you can do with internationality to bring you one step closer to who you want to be. Not sure who that is? Start there. Write out your passions and look for patterns. Then go after being that person with zero apologies. Have a wonderful Sunday evening my friends! • • “I want freedom for the full expression of my personality.” ♥️


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Maybe you’re like me and you read something like “Happiness is Homemade” and you agree with it, but then you start to really think about it. I immediately thought of happiness vs joy and if I am truly 100 % in charge of how I feel. I know many push back immediately when I ask that question. Of course I am in charge of how I feel. I’m not giving anyone that much power over me. I use to say the same thing. And know what? I was lying to myself. Faking happiness just to prove a point. • • Many of us go through things that come to steal our joy and happiness. I’m one who believes happiness and joy can co-exist even though they are two different things. Joy is a fruit of the spirit. Happiness is something that is determined by our situations. It is suppose to be more fleeting than joy because our situations change. I don’t believe however that a God who loves us enough to send His son, wants His children walking around unhappy. That’s again where surrender comes into play for me. Letting go of what was weighing me down made it easier to walk around lighter. This made it easier to smile, laugh, enjoy life again. Though you would never have seen it to look at me. Me the life of the party. Always laughing or making others laugh. Inside I was a sad,scared,and unsure little girl. I was in fact lying to myself. Mostly about how unhappy I was. Mostly with myself. • • In as sense I will say that I was in charge of getting happy. In the sense that I chose to surrender my hurts to God. My sins to God. My unworthy feelings to God. But on my own I did not climb out of my hole. God fought for me and with me all the way. My happiness is not homemade it is Heavenly made. • • I share this today for the one who is struggling to find any happiness or joy in life. Who feels like a failure because they can’t just “shake it off” and create their own happiness. You are not alone. Surrender today if you are willing to God all that is holding you down. In time and with work with God, you will rise again. You will laugh again. You will cry again. But through it all you will have the strength to face it all. Finding joy in the journey and laughing at the enemy who ever tried to stop you.


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Okay this is funny. But it also highlights a big problem we have in the world today. It was difficult enough to keep up with the Jones’s when we only knew about 25% of what they were doing. Now with social media we are bombarded daily with the life others are living that we are not. • • To that woman and man waiting to be a parent that have to see pic after pic and video of all the others who get to be parents. To the man and woman who work so hard daily simply to make ends meet while seeing others take the vacations they have always wanted to take. Or live in the house they wish they could. To the woman or man who want nothing more than to be married and are reminded what seems like post after post that “they are the only one still left unmarried.” I’m sorry. And in a lot of ways I’m right there with you. Life never seems as unfair sometimes as when I’m scrolling through my social media. • • Two things here. One, don’t believe everything you see. This is not to say that everything on SM is fake, but don’t take everything at face value. Second SM is a highlight reel. It’s the best of times. And seeing others best of times, while we maybe are in our worst of times, can be difficult. I’m not here to say other wise cause then I’d be a liar. But I’d like to share a quick story from my life that helped shape how I see things. • • While walking one day I saw a woman going downhill. I got really jealous as I was passing her going uphill struggling to breathe. Then it hit me, she either just went uphill and turned around, or she will soon be going uphill when she has to turn around. Either way she would face her own uphill battle. • • Life is life for all of us. And yes others do have it easier than you. Easier than me. But we all have our own hills to climb. • • Today I’m going to challenge you and I to stop allowing SM to dictate how much we enjoy and appreciate what we do have. It’s hard for me too. Trust me. But if we ever want to live our best life, we must stop comparing it to others highlights. We must allow others to have their downhill moments while we wait for our own. Faith in what’s unseen if you will. ♥️


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I have two new gratitude journals for the new year. In one of them there is scripture written at the top of each page. I decided to write 5 things I am grateful for that have to do with that scripture. This challenges me from a writing perspective which I love, but the most important it shows me How Gods word is working in my life. • • As a person being restored from severe anxiety it amazes me to see how the fruit of the spirit has really been transforming me. This morning as I wrote my list from Galatians 5:22-23 I couldn’t help but see the way leaning into the presence of God has really changed me and my life. I’m hoping my story inspires anyone who needs it today. • • Peace is now attainable for me. Yes I still have times where my mind can wander, but the speed at which I rebound is so much faster now. Seeing when triggered, identifying my trigger, and then going to God with it. This has lead to having more patience. Waiting though not fun, becomes so much easier when done in a peaceful mind and heart. This has lead to more self control. Now being at peace and able to wait on the Lord, I no longer feel the need to scheme, or make something happen. This keeps me from making dumb choices like in the past. Boom! Self control becomes more natural. This has lead to joy! That I can now enjoy life way more than ever before even though my biggest desires have yet to be made mine. I can now see and appreciate the love that is around me even if it’s not from a husband. All of this made possible by the fruit of the spirit. It’s truly amazing to be a part of! • • Starting is not easy. Being down so low we have forgotten what it’s like to be anywhere else, anyway else. The lies of “this is where we belong”, “it’s the best it will ever be”, ring loudly in our ears. I know because I’ve been that low. I’ve been in the pit so sure that was it for me. But God!! • • Today it’s my prayer that whoever wants it surrender to the Holy Spirit. Allow time to be used to heal what’s broken. That no matter how impossible it seems, you allow God, the great I am, work in you and your circumstances. Then down the road you can have your own fruit of the spirit gratitude list.


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Today I want to talk about hope. Hope is my biggest goal when I sit down to write. I want what I share to leave others feeling more hopeful than when they began reading. I also want you to know I understand what it is to feel like Red does here too. • • Just because we come on here and write about certain things doesn’t mean we have them mastered. In fact most of the time what I share is something I’m needing to learn to do better. In the spirit of learning how to live more with hope, I’m reading “Make Your Bed.” One mans guide to becoming your best self by doing little things. Last night I read a chapter on hope. I’d like to share some of it with you. • • “If you want to change the world start singing when you’re up to your neck in mud.” All of us have had and will have our own mud. We will have times of feeling overwhelmed and maybe even hopeless. Our situations may be different but it’s the same outcome. We need to find faith in the hard, in the painful, in the if I could I’d fly into a ceiling fan moments. There is no magic way of doing this, it’s simply a choice. A choice to sing and praise God while neck deep in our mess. That’s where Hope is found. • • So today no matter what we are facing, let’s decide to remember our rescue is standing beside you and I. Trust that I am not saying this lightly. But as a person who has been rescued from her own quicksand. Nothing about it was fun. But it taught me things I’d never know without the struggle. For me it always starts with surrender. Then finding someone to talk to. Talking to God. Crying If needed. Then it becomes easier to mount wings to fly towards victory and not defeat. 👊🏻


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True story. This is something I am dealing with right now in my life. I’ll explain. If you don’t already know, I am having a home built through Clayton Homes. It will then be put on land I am purchasing as well. The home is built in their warehouse and then brought to the land. Before it can be out on the foundation must be set. But it can’t be set in rain. I live in NC where right now we are getting nothing but rain. My house is due to be set next week. • • In my Celebrate Recovery step study we were asked what living one day at a time meant to us. I replied “peace” along with a few other things. Then we were asked if we were living one day at a time. And if not why we thought it’s hard for us to do. When answering this question I immediately thought of the weather app on my phone. How too much information can be bad for a person like me who is prone to worry. I can’t begin to understand Claytons job, how they factor weather, and I certainly can’t control the weather, so why do I keep looking? • • Maybe you can relate today too. You want to live one day at a time, in the peace it brings. But you can’t. There is something big holding you back. Maybe it’s “will I ever be married”, “will I ever have children”, “will I ever get the job I want”, “will I ever be able to have a home of my own”, and so on. I’m not here to tell you how to master this. Sorry wish I could, I’d share the secret with myself. There is only one thing I know to do. Daily surrender and a decision to stop checking the weather. 🤷🏻‍♀️ • • Daily you and I must accept that no matter how much we look, how much we try, somethings we simply can not change. Finding the good in the your day is a very helpful way to stop looking so far ahead. I will always advocate for gratitude journals. Thanking God for what is instead of meddling in what we hope is to come. Trusting that He has already given us other things, and that He wants the best for us. Daily surrender is the ONLY way I have found to stop living in anxiety and start finding peace. It’s what I want for you too. ♥️


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Yesterday in my pre-k class we had a lesson on levers. We learned they are a simple machine that allows us humans to lift something that’s otherwise too heavy for us in our own strength. And the heavier the object, the longer our lever needs to be. The further we need to be removed from it. • • Well if you’ve followed me long enough at all, you know I had a thought on how we can use this in our own recovery or our walk with Christ. • • In Celebrate Recovery there is a video we watch on baggage. The personal stuff we are carrying around that is so heavy. Stuff like anger, addiction, selfishness, guilt, unworthiness, and more. And as we all know this stuff can get heavy. And be tricky to get away from. To distance ourself from. So how do we do just that? For me the answer is as simple as a simple machine. Yet we can complicate it way too often. • • Jesus is our lever. He is what we need to be able to lift our heavy baggage and throw it away once and for all. Matthew 11.28-30,”Come to me you who are weary and I’ll fine you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Romans 8:11, “The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you” • • It’s time to stop trying to heal on our own. It’s time to stop carrying everything ourselves. It’s time to allow the power of Christ do all the heavy lifting and us to find rest. Also that whole distance thing. Remember the heavier our object the further we need to be from it? If you are overcoming big things you need big distance. Staying away from places and people as much as you can. I’ve learned the closer I stay to Christ, the further away I naturally stay from my old hurtful habits and hang ups. Today let’s leverage the simple but powerful weapon we have in Jesus. ♥️


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This is so true! 😂 But I also love how this showed up in my feed right when I felt God was putting something on me to share. It has nothing to do with music. But I am going to use this character as an example. • • Oh Dumb and Dumber, how I enjoy this movie. My sister says I have a very weird sense of humor. I don’t deny that. Lloyd was quite the character. What I loved most about him was his can do attitude! Though maybe a little misleading, his attitude was very hopeful. • • I’ll get back to him in a minute. What I feel lead to share today is surrendering our path(s) to God. Really living out Proverbs 3-6. Friday night at Celebrate Recovery we were asked to write down and bring to God what we were not surrendering. The quick answer to mine is “Who What When Where and How”. Not for everything in my life but in a certain part. I needed to re-surrender a certain part of my life. Realizing I don’t control any of those things. • • So what do I control? What do you control? We control our efforts. We control our willingness to keep going. We control our desire to stay in the will of God even when we feel He is taking too long. We control our willingness to live in hope. • • That brings me back to what I love about Lloyd. His inability to give up. Even when by all accounts he should. Today let’s go to God and say, “So you’re telling me there’s a chance.” There’s a chance to live in peace. There’s a chance to live our life in purpose. There’s a chance to become more than we ever imagined! Let’s surrender our lives and watch God do amazing things through us! I know it’s not easy. That’s why I surrender moment by moment when needed. You can too. ♥️


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Maybe you’ve heard this song from Pink too. The song is speaking about a couple, but when I listened to it about a week ago, I had a different take on this part of the song. • • There is a difference between being broken and being bent. A lot of us can look at ourselves as broken people. Not consciously connecting that broken also means useless. Think about it, if an appliance is broken it means it can no longer serve it’s purpose. It is now useless. My friend we may have been bent like hell, but we are far from useless. In fact I know my pain has made me more useful! • • I saw a meme the other day that said , “I thought I was broken and needed fixing. Not true! I was hurt and needed healing. A completely different concept.” • • Today I want to challenge you to look at yourself differently. Not someone who has no use, but as someone who has much to offer. As much as it sucks, and we don’t like hearing it, God does use our pain. What we see that makes us Powerless, He sees as powerful. A powerful message of what can follow the storm we didn’t see coming. You are not broken! You are not useless! And that pain you feel can and will be healed when surrendered in the presence of God daily! • • Learning to love again does not have to only mean a person. I have found a love of writing again that I had lost. Learning to love life again. To love that song again you can’t listen to right now. Learning to love laughing again. Learning to love being out in the world again. Learning to love yourself again. Learning to allow Gods love to be the biggest love of your life. • • I truly want you to know this today, what you’ve been through does not count you out! Yes it’s tough! Yes it hurts! Take some time to heal your wounds, while remembering you have amazing worth today! Tears and all! Still in your PJ’s and all! You are incredible! And don’t you forget it! ♥️


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Your body is made of the same elements that lionesses are built from. Three quarters of you is the same kind of water that beats rocks to rubble, wears stones away. Your DNA translates into the same amino acids that wolf genes code for. When you look in the mirror and feel weak, remember the air you breathe in fuels forest fires capable of destroying everything they touch. On the day you feel ugly, remember: diamonds are only carbon. You are so much more. • • • Photo credits: @chloeswhitee • • • • • #loveyourself #youaresomuchmore #prettylittlething #wishitwasfall #autumncolors #photography #photographylovers #knowyourtrueworth


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Who remembers this episode from Friends? I can still remember Joeys face as the two girls were conspiring. They told him not to say anything, his response was to throw his hands up and say, “Even if I wanted too.” He was so confused he didn’t even know what he knew anymore. • • James 1:6, “But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.” • • I’ve been there, maybe you have too. You thought that you knew what you knew but when life got overwhelming and complicated, turns out you didn’t. This lead to feeling lost where you once felt found, confused where you once felt confident, and scared where you once felt safe. When my life took a huge turn, when things got really really bad, I didn’t know that I knew I knew God. What I thought was strong faith was really weak and superficial. • • I was tossed around by my storm to say the least. Very double minded on what God could and would do for me. My huge feelings of unworthiness lead to me believing I was not worth saving. Literally saving and that death was coming for me. I was mentally tired and could in no way begin to learn what I didn’t know. • • Psalm 119:11, “I have hidden your word in my heart...” Having been brought out of hell by the grace of God, I want to make sure I never get that lost again. Maybe you too have been brought out or need help getting out. Tucking Gods word and promises in our hearts is the best way to keep our minds from falling under attack. That of course means we must be reading it. • • I will put some verses to read in the comments. I hope they help you as much as they have and continue to help me. • • One of the things I teach my pre-k kids is that if you really know something is true you say, “For real real not for play play.” It’s time we know that Jesus is for real real. So we can say, “I know, that I know, that I know, He lives!” Not only that He lives but He died for me. That the hope He came to bring was brought for me too


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Alright I went and saw Star Wars over a week ago. If I nerd out here, sorry, not sorry. 🤷🏻‍♀️I always get so much inspiration out of these movies. Well not those prequels, but out of the rest. One of the things I love most about these movies is how they teach to use the power inside of you, to change what’s going on outside of you. It’s about connecting to a power greater than ourselves to overcome and do things we could never do on our own. Of course Rey had the force. We have that Holy Ghost power. We’ve got that resurrection power. • • I have learned over these last 4 years how much the mind and body are connected. How powerful the mind is. How most of the time I had defeated myself in my mind before I ever stepped up to battle. I still can do that. Negative self image is a difficult thing to truly get over. So for now, until I can remember always who I am in Christ, I center my mind on the power that’s inside me. I pray for the words, for the strength, for the patience, for the courage, whatever it is I’m in need of. I close my eyes and connect to the force inside me that’s way greater than me. • • If you’ve seen the movie you know the scene where Rey holds off and moves a ship in the air (sorry I’m not nerd enough to know what it’s called 🤷🏻‍♀️). The point is, she was so sure she didn’t have what it took, to do what she did. Until she fully connected to the power that had always been inside her. • • Mark 11:23, “Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them.” • • I have been able to move my own mountains with God and continue to learn what it is to trust who I am in Him. In the power of Christ. I want that same victory for all who want it. • • Today your mountain may be huge. It may be heavy. But it’s no match for you and your God! Today close your eyes, center in on God, on Jesus, on the Holy Spirit. Allow what they can do to come in and strengthen what you can do. Tell your mountain to move!!! Then go about the work with God to move it! Ask for help too. You never have to go it alone. ♥️


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My heart is so full! Celebrating turning 44 today by finally holding this little guy! I even got a few grins. 🤗 • • I have to say that 43 though not exciting through events or photos taken, was a great year! A year of preparing what’s to come this year, my own home! I might lead a dull life, but I live a blessed one. 🤗😂 I look forward to seeing what 44 holds for me! What it holds for this page. What words it holds that I am blessed to get to share with you all. And your words I’m blessed to read.🙌🏻


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You are an angel. You are a star. You are a blessing. #knowyourtrueworth #youaresomeone #youareloved. #GMTL #POEMSBYSTEPHANIE #POEMSINTHEKEYOFLIFE #POETRYLADIE


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Last year I had a meeting with the owner of the school I teach at about my desire to go from classroom to management. It went well and I left feeling pretty good about it. Then at the beginning of this year I emailed her as a follow up to our conversation. She replied with some possible opportunities to help out with events or things of that nature so I could learn how things work outside the classroom. The owner is not in our school as much as she owns 2 different schools. She was however there the last two days. I was so proud of myself that I didn’t bombard her with questions or ideas of how she could make this work. I instead decided to trust she keeps her word and remembers my desire. • • Meanwhile I can do something to make this desire of mine more a reality some day. Go back to school 🤦🏻‍♀️. Take Amin 1 and 2 that is usually required for such a job. Take a computer course maybe to brush up my tired computer skills. Work more diligently at the job I already do have there. Things that I can do to keep on track of my own desire. Not begging or chasing for a chance but working for one trusting it will happen when it’s time. • • But am I like that with God? Do I do what I can do while not bombarding God with, “well what about now? And, why not now? Or, How God? How are you going to make this happen?” Am I casing down people begging for anything they are willing to give me, or am I bettering myself trusting the right things and people will come along? Am I working towards something or simply waiting for God to do it all while I throw a tantrum to get what I want? I’m glad to say I’m becoming the worker more and more but not in my own strength. • • God knows our desires and what we need before we do. Yes we pray over them not to nag God, but to remind ourselves to surrender daily. Trusting that when the time is right and we are ready, God will make it happen. But we must be ready. How do we get ready? One step at a time. Do one thing that will help you get closer to a goal, then do another. Not huge steps even, just one baby step and then another. That way you aren’t running after anything. You’re simply doing what you can do and trusting God.


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Looking back on this past year got me like... but in all honesty, 2019 was a doozy. I made some good, some bad, and some downright terrible choices. I dealt with a lot more problems than I was ready for. I ended up in some odd relationships, one of which ended up being abusive. I had to be the bad guy at the office when dealing with my staff. But with all the bad, comes some good! I finished my first year of leading a staff. I excelled in my writing and grew a small following that I’m excited to grow even more. I found my way back to the Church. I realized my true worth when it comes to dating. I grew tremendously. With every obstacle that got thrown my way, I still took steps forward. Reminder that no matter which direction you’re going, whether it be left, right, or forward, you’re still moving! Don’t sit still, the time is now. 2020, I’m ready for ya 👊🏻


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For those who saw my post last night or didn’t. I want to give some encouragement again this evening. Yesterday I shared that I had made a declaration in faith this year would be the end of the pain and discomfort my body has been in the past 4 years. Then bam! Worst pain I had been in in a while. Days of serious pain. But I refused to give up my declaration! Today I’m happy to say that I felt way better! I took full advantage by dancing around and later in the day going for a walk! Taking this amazing day and doing more with it! I never know day to day how my body will feel, but I thank God this day was so great! I want to encourage anyone tonight who needs to hear this, better days do come. They might be in the midst of up and down days, but that doesn’t make them any less spectacular! Tonight if you’re feeling down about what today held, rest in the hope of what tomorrow could bring! Rest in the peace and comfort of believing in the good that’s still to come! And to all of you who pray for me, wish me well, or simply cheer me on in private, thank you! Here’s to better days ahead for us all! 👊🏻♥️


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Gonna share something here. For those who feel they are all alone in their healing journey. Healing is more than a process. It’s a choice daily to try and live while still hurting. Not simply exist but live. Whether that pain is emotional, physical, or both. Smiling when you feel like crying. To keep going when all you want to do is give up. I am all for looking for reasons to smile. If you follow me enough on here you’ll see that. • • Looking for reasons to be hopeful even when things feel or seem hopeless. But sometimes you gotta be true to how you’re feeling too. Allowing yourself time to rest. To be genuine in how you are feeling. Finding others in your life that will allow you to do that. That’s vital. Also one of the best places I have found to be me is in the presence of my God. My Savior. At the foot of the cross. • • On January 1st I made a declaration in faith that this year would be the last year of the physical pain/discomfort my body has been in for the past 4 years. That by the end of 2020 it would be the end of not feeling comfortable in my own body. Know what? I’ve been in the worst pain the last few days I’ve been in in a while. But I refuse to give up. I refuse to believe that this pain will not be gone. • • To you hurting tonight, doing your best to stand or sit or lay down in faith that your pain will end. I’m with you. God is with you. May neither of us give up, give into hopelessness. May our faith be stronger than our fears and pain. May our faith be as BIG as our God! ♥️


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I hear it all the time from my students. “They ALWAYS get to go to block center.” “I NEVER get to go to block center.” “They ALWAYS get to have that job.” “I ALWAYS NEVER get that job.” And it goes on and on and on. 20 something children saying the same thing to me. To hear them say it, no one ever gets to play in the block center and yet it’s always full. 🤷🏻‍♀️ • • When I hear my little ones use those words, I try to explain to them that always and never are really big words. Not in the amount of letters they use or syllables they have, but in what they mean. I then ask them to think about it. I’ll say something like, “Are you sure you’ve never gotten to play there, or are you simply upset you can’t go there right now? Think really hard.” They May reply back with, “But such and such Always gets to play in there.” Again I’ll remind them about “always”. That I’ve seen such and such playing else where too. I also try to teach them not to worry so much about what they think someone else always gets to do. • • As much as we are called as Christ followers to have child like faith, we are not called to keep all of our child like mentalities. Though I know for me I can be the first to use “always and never” in a sentence. “They seem to always get everything, I never get anything, and other tantrum statements.” Now I don’t use those exact words, but the sentiment is there. • • Today if you’re like me and can find yourself using big words like always and never, I want to challenge us both. Challenge us to think really hard. Is it that we never, or are we simply having a hard time waiting our turn? Yes waiting is hard even for us adults. But while we wait, let’s not only think on what we do have, but also find joy in what we already get to do. If we’re a child waiting for our turn on the tire swing, let’s go have a blast sliding down the twisty slide! Also, let’s not waste time being envious of those who are on their own tire swing right now. 🤗 • • “Searching for purpose in all the waiting Praying through so many silent hours Finding a breath when you feel like fading Learning to love where you are right now. “ Let’s work on doing that! ♥️


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Okay how about we set some resolutions we can actually keep! • • Have you ever chosen a word for your resolution? One word that you will focus on for 365 days no matter what happens in those days. For the last two years I chose the same word, “surrender.” It has taken all of those two years to get as good today at surrendering to God as I am. And you know what, I’m choosing it again. Surrender is hard y’all. But I’m adding a new word too. A word I feel God put on my heart about a month ago during my small group. That word is, “forward”. See I have gotten real good at healing while being still these last few years. Now it’s time to move. This I feel wholeheartedly is my mission in the year to come. • • What will that look like? I have no idea. That’s the thing about choosing a word, you don’t have to. You simply have to be willing to stay true to it no matter what. Trusting God to put the right word on your heart, and then trusting in Him with the follow through. This isn’t something you are meant to do on your own power. It’s the power of the Holy Spirit. • • If you need to, pray today. Ask God to tell you one thing you need to focus on this year. One thing that will help you get closer to living the life you desire and/or meant to. Maybe it is the first step of surrendering your life to Christ. Your will over to God. Find your word and then give it all you’ve got with the help of God. • • Here’s the amazing thing. It’s not as hard as you might think it is right now. Through time in prayer and Gods word and reaching out to others for help, you can do this! If I can, so can you! We both are powered by the same Holy Ghost power! And if like me you get it wrong here and there, you can start again. So, what’s your word for 2020? I’d love to know and stand in faith with you in the days to come! ♥️


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Respect yourself or others won’t. #KnowYourTrueWorth


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Raise your hand if you want to claim in faith too that you and 2020 will do great things together! This is it! Day one or one day as they say. Which will you choose? • • Here’s the great news! Everyday, whether it starts with one or not, can be day one with God! No calendar can dictate that for you. Today happens to be day one but tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day, and the next day can be too. I want that to encourage you as much as it does me. Yes we are meant to live each day in purpose, on purpose, but we also live in a very fallen world that makes that difficult. We all have fallen short at times. Even those you look up to the most. Those preachers you see on TV, or at your church. Those authors you love to read so much who tell you better ways to live. I have definitely and do still fall very short. However I am learning how not to stay there. And that’s the difference. How long you decide to stay down makes all the difference in this world. • • Learning how to see everyday as a new chance. A new beginning. A new day to decide, “This is day one. I don’t care what the calendar says. This is the day I start to change it all.” The moment you decide to surrender what you can’t control and allow God to take over, is the day it all changes. • • The best thing is that with Jesus, there is not maximum count on day ones you can have. Sure we all strive to live in our recovery the best we can, and that’s an awesome feeling. Defeating what once had us beaten. I simply want you to know what I am coming to learn. We all mess up. Either in the same way or new ones. And God loves us anyway. So do what I had to and lay down the need for perfection. And pick up the amazing peace of living in progress. Each day moving forward one step at a time with God. • • Today so happens to be day one of the rest of your life. I urge you to make the most of it. Not by what you eat for superstition, or what you do. But by simply starting it out in the presence of God. Then live each day that way. Not just one day at a time, but day one at a time. Always excited for what’s possible! ♥️


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If being in your comfy pants under your heated blanket at 9:15 chillin with Netflix and a on New Years Eve is wrong. Well then I’m wrong! To all of you have a wonderful safe night! I’ll see you 2020 in the morning! 🎉🤗🥰


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Wow! Here we are! Not simply a new year, but a new decade. It’s mind blowing to me as I can still remember partying like it was 1999 like it was yesterday. 🤦🏻‍♀️ • • This morning I found myself writing in my gratitude journal something I’d like to share with you. That I am so grateful, maybe you are too, that new beginnings don’t simply belong in New Years. That new beginnings come every morning. Lamentations 3:22-23, “Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” • • The new year doesn’t have to be the only time we find a new start. A new chance to try again. To this time get it right. Gods new mercies everyday ensures us that any and every day is another fresh start. Is another chance to begin again. • • I don’t know what 2019 held for you. For some like myself it was a great year. Sure it held some up and downs but all in all 2019 was very good to me. But for some 2019 held loss, suffering, pain, falling back into hold habits you swore you were done with. I have had those years too. There is nothing holding you back from moving forward. Yes 2020 may need to be a healing year, but that doesn’t mean it can’t hold new things! My prayer this morning is for all who need to find Jesus, the cross, and all the newness and healing they both offer. • • This morning in my prayer time I thanked Jesus for dying so I could live. But also resurrecting so I could live again! It’s your time to live again! Not because it’s a new year, but because the resurrection power that was in Jesus is in you too! It’s in all of us. May today be the day you begin to trust in Gods new mercies and the life He so desires for you to live. • • I have had a few people say, “2020 is the year for clear vision.” I think of the song, “I can see clearly now the rain is gone.” Yes your year may have been a stormy season. I pray you look up to God to help you see clearly that it’s a new day, a new year, and hope for a “new you”. ♥️


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Maybe like me you can get off track with your quite time from time to time. Like I said in my women’s group yesterday, “I want God to be routine in my life but not so routine that I miss Him when my routine changes.” Basically I want to make time for God no matter what. But not out of obligation. Instead out of a true desire for Him in my life. • • I also couldn’t help but correlate yesterday my uneasy feelings about certain things. How they have manifested themselves in the lack of my quiet time. Gods not looking for me to be perfect in my time with Him, He is looking for me to be genuine in my desire and need for Him. The quiet time is simply a byproduct of that. The more I wish to know God, His plans for my life, the more I will find myself digging into His word. The more I will find myself praying and talking to Him. Praising Him for all I have to be grateful for. • • If you need to, please join me in rededicating your quite time to the Lord. Not just setting time aside, but making time for Him. Saying, “My relationship with you God is a priority.” A heartfelt cry that says, “I’m sorry I’ve been ignoring you lately God. Please forgive me.” Then go about spending that precious time with Him. Genuine heartfelt connection is waiting for you and for me. ♥️


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Last night I was blessed to be in the presence of hope. In the presence of what God can do. In the presence of a life becoming something beautiful, a life surrendered. In the presence of the difference a year can make. • • Out of respect of privacy, I won’t go into detail. Just know what was once broken was now mended. How? Through daily surrender to God. Through doing the hard work of recovery. Through being willing to say this is too hard for me alone. Through a choice to accept support. Through a willingness to stop hiding behind masks and start being genuine in what was hurting. One step at a time. Somedays one moment at a time. • • So often I know we look at what needs to be done and it can seem too overwhelming. The road to redemption, recovery, and restoration seems too long. But I can promise you from my own experience that you don’t have to walk it alone. God is willing and waiting to walk with you. There are groups such as Celebrate Recovery who would love nothing more than to take this journey with you. Other support groups in your church. If you don’t have a church a friend you trust. Lies will tell you that no one cares. I’m here today to tell you that we do. • • For me surrendering to God had to come first. Letting go of my false sense of control for Gods real peace. Accepting that though life up till this point had not gone as planned, didn’t mean the rest of my life couldn’t go according to Gods plans. Learning how to stop self sabotaging the good in my life out of the enemy’s lies that I wasn’t worthy. And all that started for me with step one. Admitting I was powerless and needed help. • • Today I want to encourage you with this truth. Admitting you need help is not weakness. On the contrary, it’s one of the strongest things you can do. It takes courage in this world to admit imperfections. If you need some strength today to admit your weakness, call on the name of God. Call on the One who has as much at stake in your life as you do. After all you are His child. He wants you to live whole as much as you do. He’s not there to berate you for your past, but to help you heal and live in a future filled with hope with Him. ♥️


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Isaiah 30:21, “Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, This is the way; walk in it.” • • The other day while going to the mall for a little last minute Christmas shopping, I had my GPS on to make sure I was taking the best route. Once I knew where I was, which way I wanted to go, I forgot to turn it off. I happened upon an accident right in the middle of the road I needed to take.(One thing you must know about me is my terrible sense of direction.🤦🏻‍♀️) It was raining too which I hate to drive in so I was feeling a little agitated. It was then I decided on my own to turn left and try to figure it out from there. It was then my GPS spoke up and said “Continue straight for...”. • • Then I remembered what had gotten me to that point, my GPS. I had forgotten it was still on. It quickly rerouted me and took me exactly where I was going. Yes it took a little bit longer. Yes I was navigating in the rain longer than I would have liked. But.I.Got.There. • • As we go into a new year, a new decade, I want to inspire you and myself to trust Who has gotten us this far. Yes maybe a tragedy or trauma found itself right in the middle of where you were going. Yes maybe you have been in what seems like the longest stormy season ever! Yes maybe you have gotten off track. But your GPS, “God Protection Services” is still on. It’s still rerouting you to get you to where you are going. Where you are meant to be. Maybe you, like I did, have forgotten it’s even there. That doesn’t mean God isn’t working on your behalf. In 2020 and beyond, let’s do our best to remember to listen to that still small voice telling us where to go next. • • “Dear Lord, thank you for all your protection in the past year. Even when it didn’t look like protection to me. Thank you for another year and all the blessings it held and your help in the problems it held. Lord in the coming year please help me to remember You. Holy Spirit please help me to feel your presence as we continue to navigate life together. Thank you God for loving me even when I forget at times to remember You. In Jesus Name, Amen.”


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It’s that time! New Years resolutions! Maybe you’re the one person who can keep them no problem, for the rest of us if we had a drawer to keep our unrealized expectations of ourselves in, it would be our new junk drawer. 🙋🏻‍♀️ • • But what if there was a way to set a goal and reach it. To say our desires out loud and then go for them. As scary as change, or going after something that seems too big for us, or letting others into our hearts or lives again, can be. These things become a lot more possible when we approach them step by step with God. Here is a little example from my own life the last year and a half. • • The desire, a home that is all mine. After illness and not working almost a year. After my engagement ended now needing to find a new place to live. Getting thrown out of my moms by her apartment management. Moving from friends house to friends house to friends house all while healing. To finally landing at my Grandmothers house after she became ill and passed away. A home was my desire. So all while praying I took this step by step. First: God as scared as I am I’m going to reach out for help. God as scared as I am In going to check my credit. God as scared as I am I’m going to apply for a credit card and build my credit. God as scared as I am I’m going to reach out to someone about this property. God as scared as I am I’m going to keep looking for land. God as scared as I am I’m going to go talk to someone about building a house. God as scared as I am I’m going to now apply for a loan. God as scared as I am I’m going to put an offer in on this land. God as scared as I am I’m going to pick out a floor plan for my home. God as scared as I am I’m going to put money down and sign this contract. God as scared as I am to buy a new home on my own I’m going to continue to trust you in the blessing that my new home will be in a few months from now. • • What about you? What’s a desire you are scared to think about much less say out loud. A desire you are too afraid to hope for because in your current circumstances it seems too big for you. It may be too big for you alone, but not with God. Be inspired today to start that which you long to do.


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“Glory, glory, Christmas morning Hallelujah, all is new Love came down and changed our story Every heart was waiting until You” • • Merry Christmas Morning! I know for me this new song from Danny Gokey rings so true. I was hopeless looking for answers until I met Jesus. My heart was broken looking for healing until Jesus. I was a drifter looking for a place I belonged util you Jesus. Maybe you can relate to this song today too. • • This is the day to change all that! To find joy. To find hope. To find peace. To find a shelter in your storm. To find healing for all that hurts. To find Jesus! The Savior who came down from Heaven for you. Who lived His life for you. Who sacrificed His life for you. It started with a baby but ended with redemption, restoration, and a place of refuge. That’s the gifts waiting for you this Christmas! • • It’s my prayer that every person who wants to receive the gift of their Savior do that this glorious day. The day we celebrate the birth that changed the world! It can change your world too. Open your heart this morning and receive Jesus. Be made whole again and find a love like you’ve never known. I pray we all be blessed today in the knowledge and acceptance of the gift hope! May we shine as bright as the star that led to Jesus. May we guide ourselves and others to the greatest present of all. Jesus! ♥️🤗🎄🎁


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And worship songs just hit harder. And the birth of the Savior looks a little different. And the cross becomes a little more personal. This is not to say you have to have some big breaking of your life to love God, to be grateful. But it’s different when you thought you were done, and God made sure you weren’t! That’s a connection that’s difficult to explain. • • Last night at a Christmas concert a song was sung that hit me so deep in my chest. How true the words are, and how true they were for me. Maybe today you’re needing the greatest gift of all, the presence of a Savior. To be put back together with something stronger than scotch tape this time. To be put back together with the love of God. I want to share the words with you that touched my heart last night, because I know how true they are. • • God You are a Way maker. A miracle worker. A promise keeper. Light in the darkness. My God that is who You are. • • Once you have been put back together by God you will know without a doubt this is Who God is. I want you to know this now. Even in your pain. Even in your darkness. Even in your anger. Even in your addiction. God is ALL of this for you and I and more. • • As we approach Christmas I want to invite you to open your heart to Jesus. For that little baby that was born to live and die for you. That kind of love is life changing. And better than any other gift you will ever receive. Be blessed today and in days to come by it. Allow God to do what only He can do. After all He didn’t use elves to create you. You are His handiwork alone. ♥️🎄🎁


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My first official purchase with my new home specifically in mind. Next year at this time it will be sitting in a promise come true. A promise that if I kept at it, kept believing, kept surrendering, God would restore what was lost. He has seen me through great loss to find my way into a home. A place I belong. A place that is for me. It’s like that with God too. Though He loves us all He has a place with Him that is just for you. Where you belong. Where you matter. He has a home for you in His presence. I am walking living proof of what faith and perseverance can do. It may have taken a few years, but I am believing that the timing of this house is just right. Today I pray that no matter how long your road to redemption, restoration, and healing has been or will be, that you never give up. That you believe the best in what’s to come! May hope be your gift this Christmas season! 🎄🤗♥️🙌🏻


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Today’s Messages: ☝🏼🦋💗 Everyone Have A Lovely Day ✨🤞🏼 • #WOWWBM #WomenOfWorthWithBeautifulMinds • • • • #knowyourtrueworth #selfloveiskey #honoryourself #positivity #love #hustlehardjass #embraceyourself


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I know I’ve been here before. Wanting an easy fix to a not so easy situation. Something I’m learning though is it’s not always that a fix is hard or easy but that it’s more about persistence and patience. And that sometimes an answer seems too easy I have to complicate it. 🤷🏻‍♀️ • • I believe for some, including myself, the answer to finding and living a life in peace, love, and purpose, has to be hard right? I mean those are pretty big things to accomplish. I want to share with you two truths I have come to know and accept. • • Truth one: It’s not hard to find your way to who and where you are suppose to be. It’s just not easy. SURRENDER! Learning to let go of all those things you have been clinging to control over. Letting go of any guilt, shame, or regret. Letting go of what you thought life would or should look like, but being open and ready to love life as it is right now. Leaving room for hope as well for what’s still to come. I’m sure Mary didn’t plan on being pregnant while unwed, much less giving birth to a Savior. Life has a way of bringing what is needed, we just have to be open to seeing it through. That leads to my next truth. • • Truth number two: Patience is a must when growing and healing. Grace is a must when changing old ways or habits. Persistence is a must to get from one place to another. Healing, restoration, change, all take time. There is no quick fix. Work is needed to let go and to move forward. Don’t rush yourself or allow anyone else too. • • And a bonus third truth: Jesus is the best fix I have ever found. Building a relationship with Him has been the healthiest decision I have ever made. And while yes I still have more to do, saying yes to Jesus has been the best way to stay on track. To be patient. To show myself some grace. And to not give up. Jesus might not be a quick fix, but He is an immediate help in all troubles. • • My hope and prayer for you and myself today is that we keep going. We keep making one healthy choice at a time and before we know it will be healthier, happier, more at peace with ourselves and our lives. So here’s to accepting Jesus promise of immediate peace but being ready to doing the work with too. ♥️


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One of the best things about this time of year for me as a teacher, is little feet running into our room with little hands holding big bags. And the biggest of all is the smile on their faces that is an extension of their big hearts. Giving is so BIG to them and it’s such a blessing to be apart of. • • There’s another set of little hands that came to give us a big gift. The greatest gift of all, salvation. And His heart for you is unmatched by anyone else. This gift is yours if you want it. Right now. Today in fact you can become a member of the family of Christ. • • There is no secret you have to know first. Salvation is never hidden from us, or double wrapped in a bigger box so we won’t know what it is. Jesus is not trying to trick you like that. 🤗 No, this gift is more like the one you’d come running down to on Christmas morning. Sitting there right in front of the tree, waiting to be discovered! It’s out in the open and yours for the taking. Simply be ready for it and ask Jesus to live in your heart. To be Lord of your life and help you live out the rest of your days as best as you can for Him. Repent of old ways and begin to live in the new with Him. Then find others who are trying to do the same. Ask for help when needed. And go about the business of being the new creation in Christ you are now. • • Know that when you decide to receive this gift all of Heaven will be rejoicing for you! I’d love to rejoice for you too! Let me know your decision please. I’m just someone who decided to receive the gift too and now is living that out. Be blessed today and in days to come.♥️


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Pleaw allow me to explain. I am in no way suggesting you can’t laugh genuinely when hurting. • • One of the things I had to come to realize in my own journey of self discovery and healing was my bad habit of using humor to mask my pain. If I could keep people laughing enough they wouldn’t recognize how much I was hurting inside. I did this so much it simply became a part of who I was. I didn’t see it after a while as a coping mechanism, a mask, anymore. In public I was this happy go lucky girl, but in private I was dealing with some pretty intense demons. • • Demons are tricky like that. They know how to blend in. They know how to mask themselves as being a part of your personality. That unhealthy need to please everyone looks like a get it done type of person. And what’s wrong with that. Right? That unhealthy need to seem like you always have it together looks like a planner who makes lists and checks them twice and then again. Never satisfied with what got done in a day. But that’s just being organized and successful. Nothing wrong with that. Right? The list goes on but IG characters will not. 😉 • • Take it from a recovering people pleaser and stand up comedian. Having the gift of organization, humor, giving spirit, is not bad. They are gifts from God. It’s when we abuse them and use them in unhealthy ways. Last night I got to be funny and laugh and make jokes all while also being genuine in my other feelings too. Laughing out of joy and not masking pain is such a gift! Giving to others out of the goodness of your heart and not to quietly beg for love and acceptance is such a gift. It’s a gift God desperately wants you to receive and use. • • Recovering from big hurts and loses is one of the best things you can do for yourself and those who love you. There is nothing more beautiful than a life lived genuinely. Nothing more beautiful than the sound of joy. Even if it comes out in a snort laugh. Be blessed today. Here’s to learning how to live healthy and honestly! ♥️


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A father before he died said to his son: “this is a watch your grandfather gave me, and is more than 200 years old. But before I give it to you, go to the watch shop on the first street, and tell him I want to sell it, and see how much he offers you”. He went, and then came back to his father, and said, "the watchmaker offered 5 dollars because it's old”. He said to him : “go to the coffee shop”. He went and then came back, and said: “He offered $5 father”. “Go to the museum and show that watch”. He went then came back, and said to his father “They offered me a million dollars for this piece”. The father said: “I wanted to let you know that the right place values you in right way. Don't find yourself in the wrong place and get angry if you are not valued. Those that know your value are those who appreciate you, don't stay in a place where nobody sees your value". #KnowYourTrueWorth CTTO


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Talking last night in my “Anxious For Nothing” group I made a statement that is so true for me, and may be for someone else too. I said, “The further I get away from my “rescue” the easier it becomes to be more like my “old” self”. I also added how unfortunate this was. • • I have learned for me the easiest way to stay and live in recovery is to stay connected to the one Who made sure I recovered. The one Who rescued me from myself. From my over worked brain and body. From my anxious thoughts and feelings of hopelessness and unworthiness. The more I stay connected to God, the more I stay connected to my rescue. So when I find myself falling into old habits, I am able to snap out of it much quicker. Remembering how I have already been saved, helps me to not drown again. I may splash around a little, feeling the pressures of life, even go under maybe once or twice, but I can remind myself of the rock that’s under my feet and stand. • • Maybe today you’re facing something for the first time. You are feeling just as I was and so many others have and do right now, hopeless. Like a lost cause. You are anything but. If you don’t have a rescue story yet like I do, if you’re in your battle right now, there is another rescue you can lean on today. The rescue of the cross. The fact that Jesus was born, lived, and died for you. The cross changes everything! Whatever you’re facing right now, as bad as I know it is or seems, is nothing in the face of the cross. Nothing compared to the rescue it signifies. Today if you are already or choose for the first time to follow Christ, you are justified. You are forgiven. You are free from all guilt or shame. That’s the rescue I originally had to fully accept to heal and move forward, it can do the same for you too. • • Today whether it’s the cross and/or your own personal rescue from a bad season in your life, remember it. When life is being life, stress is taking over, what ifs are taking over, sadness is taking over, remember your rescue is right there beside you! He is hope for all your today’s and tomorrows! Have faith in the one Who saved you. May the only shadow you focus on be the shadow of the cross and the love it casts. ♥


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I had a little girl walk into the class room the other week, stop dead in her tracks, and say, “Look.” She then preceded with all her little 5 year old might to stomp her new light up shoes. Her smile was so big. It was a cute and heart warming moment. • • It can be way too easy in the hustle and bustle of life to lose our child like wonder. Our ability to find joy in even the smallest of things. Maybe because as a child the smallest of things seemed like the biggest of things. But as we get older our sense of wonder gets lost in the to do list, the keeping up with the Jones list you might have, work, family, friends, so many things needing our attention. We lose sight of what it is to be excited about life. • • There is another source of light that can help bring wonder back into your life. I know it has mine. A light that can help you stop fighting the hamster wheel of life and start looking forward to daily living again. A light that can help you and I stop dead in our tracks and say “Look.” Look at what God has done. And show off how we and our lives have been transformed. • • Today it’s my prayer that those who need and want to find this light. The light of Jesus. Simply pray, “Jesus come into my heart and my life. Be the light in my holiday and in the continued days of my life. Please help me to surrender all to you and regain my child like joy and wonder.” Then don’t stop there. Find a church if you don’t have one. Find a support group within a church. Reach out to friends you know are doing their best to live in the light of Christ. Keep going and working with Jesus until you are a 5 year old agin stomping your feet to show off your light up shoes. You are Gods child, He wants you to live in joy. He wants you to be at peace. He wants you to be a light in this all too dark world. He wants to be that light for you too. ♥️


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I am a stranger to you probably. And I’m mentioning Jesus. Do you know Him? Do you want to? If you don’t but you do want to, I’m here to tell you a secret. It’s very simple to know Jesus. Though life might be complicated. Knowing the the giver of life is not. • • “I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.” (John 151-4) • • Some of us today are carrying around branches that are bearing no fruit. Anger, bitterness, regret, guilt, shame, feelings of unworthiness, habits we can’t quit, and more. We are trying to cultivate a good, peaceful, well meaning life, but are doing it without being connected to the vine that supplies these things. That supplies life. • • A relationship with Jesus is the best way I have found to stop trying in vain to produce a fruitful life with dead branches. The pruning process has and continues to prove painful at times, but I can tell you it’s been well worth it. • • If you don’t know Jesus today and you want to, I urge you to stop allowing anything to keep you from Him. No amount of bad choices or sins can stand in the way of you knowing Jesus. Of Him loving and knowing you. I pray with all sincerity that you have this moment, the moment of being able to jump up and down and say, “Jesus is coming! I know Him!!” Reach out to Jesus today and ask Him to come into your heart and life. Reach out to a friend you trust who follows Christ, or go to a church and ask for their pastor. Anyone who loves Jesus would be honored to help you find your way to Him. ♥️🤗


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Never apologize for making yourself a priority. You are worth being too busy for others sometimes. Healing and restoration takes time and intentionality. It’s hard to be intentional about ourselves if we never make time for it. Even in the busy season of Christmas, don’t forget to rest. I saw it said the other day, “The first Christmas was a simple one, it’s okay of yours is too.” Your mental or physical health is the best gift you can give to yourself and to others. Be blessed in your rest today. ♥️


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This! This is something I am trying desperately to learn how to do. To not just be content, but love my life as it is in this moment. Not looking for what’s next all the time, but enjoying what’s right now. • • Two days ago during my prayer time I prayed for this. To finally find a way to stop feeling like such a work in progress all the time. Like an unfinished novel that haunts the author from their desk. There is always room for growth, for new things in life, not there is also something to be said for feeling complete, whole, not always like an unfinished project. To see and appreciate where we have been brought to already. • • I know this won’t be easy for some. It’s not easy for me. That’s why I was praying for help. I have unmet desires, hopes, and dreams, as I’m sure a lot of you do too. This isn’t about giving up on them, rather it’s about finding joy in our present, while walking in faith for our future. • • Fear can cast an ugly shadow, it can cause such darkness that we can’t see what’s right in front of us. Not only already good things in our life, but also a constant help in our troubles too. Jesus is light for the darkness, light for the shadows. To shine so bright that nothing is cast in front of us but hope. • • It’s learning how to believe in something before we can see it. Maybe not everything we want, but the best life we were created to live. Faith that what is meant for us will find us in its due time. Until then praising God for the life we already hold. This might take you time and that’s okay, some of us are healing deep wounds. I know personally the power of prayer, reading Gods word, and having a relationship with your Lord and Savior. How light destroys darkness without hesitation. Today I pray if you need to you surrender what was, what is, and what will be to God. To allow the light to win! ♥️


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I was blessed to go see one of my friends son perform in his Christmas Concert at their church last night. What’s most special about that is he is an 8 year old boy whose parents were told at 14 months he wouldn’t probably live past 7. A lung disease called Pulmonary Hypertension was to blame. Now at 8, a little boy who wasn’t suppose to make it. Much less be able to sing. Not only sang last night, but had a solo and gave it all he had the whole night! Praise God! • • That’s what love can do. It can cause a person to never give up even when the odds are against them. Even when all Hope seems lost. Love can endure all things, sacrifice, and never regret it. This child was never once given up on by his parents or anyone else! • • As we come upon the Christmas season, may we know and remember that it’s a season about love. Way more than Valentines Day is. It’s about a love for you and me that is never willing to give up. So much so that a Savior was given to us who would live for us and later die for us. A baby did indeed change everything! • • Whether Jesus was born in December or not, who cares? The fact is He was born and this is when we celebrate that gift! I pray this season if you have never received the gift of Christ, and you want to, you do so. Nothing magical to do, simply say, “Jesus come into my heart. Please be the Lord of my life. From here on out I will do my best to live for you.” Then surrender to the greatest love you will ever know. Life changing, now I can live free from bondage, love! Yes! Let’s all come see what love has done this Christmas season! I promise you it’s one gift that will always fit! Always be enough! The gift that keeps on giving! Be blessed 🤗


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It’s time to be set free! It’s time to stop being luke warm about our healing and moving forward. It’s time to look ourselves, our sins, and others in the eye and be honest with all three. It’s time to stop running from our hard truths! • • Here’s the best part, when we do this, we can run towards Gods hard love for us! Being set free from acts we can’t seem to stop doing on our own. Even when these very acts are hurting us or others. Romans 7:15, “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.” • • You are not the only one today struggling to stop something you don’t want to do. Don’t allow the enemy or anyone else make you feel like you are. Like you’re all alone in the struggle. • • Today is the day we need to declare, “THIS IS MY EXODUS!” This is the day I decide to leave behind what’s keeping me stuck. To surrender to God all that I can’t control or fix on my own. Today is the day I decide to allow God start the work of restoring my soul. • • It’s time we stop hurting ourselves. It’s time to declare the past has no place in the future! This morning I prayed specifically that anyone who believes they can’t move forward, so sure they are the one God can’t or won’t help, be set free from that lie today. I prayed for you. ♥️👊🏻🙌🏻


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Fear or faith? But for me fear and faith are not as cut and dry, black and white, as it might be to some. And that’s okay, I fully believe we can have different perspectives on things. Allow me to explain please. • • For me fear not from having too little faith in God, in what He could do. But from not having enough faith in who I am through Him. Because of Him. That fear of not being good enough led me to a lack of faith in what God would want to do for me. To bless me with. That all the bad in my life was because God didn’t approve of me, love me, because of my sins. I don’t blame God for that, that was all me. I had to take the responsibility on getting to know God better. That while yes He wants me to make better healthier choices, choices that glorify Him, His feelings for me were not contingent on that. Romans 5:8,”But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” • • For me really accepting this word of God helped me to be able to finally be set free from the fear of never living up to an expectation. This allowed my faith in Gods love for me to grow. Then that allowed my love of myself to grow. Then fear lost its hold. No longer did my decisions have to be based on a fear of never being good enough. But instead on a faith that God was with me no matter what. And you know what, it then became easier for me to make better healthier choices. Choices that glorify God. Not because I felt I had to, but because I wanted to. Funny how love can change a person way better than fear can. • • Today I want you to know these two things. First, God loves you. He wants better for you. Even if that better has had to come through pain first. Second, that yes God wants sin out of your life. “Go and sin no more.” But God also knows you and I couldn’t do that under the law, that’s why He sent grace through Jesus. That while you and I were still messing up, Jesus had already died for us. Knowing that makes it easier to do right vs wrong. To know that no matter what you are covered by the cross. So today let love win out. Let faith win out over fear. Allow the cross to do what it was meant for. Set you free! ♥️


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John 3:16 proves that. God would do anything for you to know He loves you. The verse tells us that God so loved the world. It is written in a way that anyone and everyone who hears it or reads it never has to guess if it includes them. It includes you today too. • • Listening to this song from Garth Brooks the other day I couldn’t help not link the words to God, to Jesus. God sent His son, gave His son, Jesus gave His life. All so you could know this, “When the rain is blowing in your face And the whole world is on your case I could offer you a warm embrace To make you feel my love When the evening shadows and the stars appear And there is no one there to dry your tears Oh, I will hold you for a million years, To make you feel my love.” • • Today if a storm is blowing, if it feels like the wind is blowing in your face, God is offering you a warm embrace. I pray you take it. I pray you allow the love offered to all, be given to you. ♥️


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It’s 6:20 am. I have been up for an hour now. Scrolling through IG a bit looking at the inspirational thoughts of others I follow. Through FB a bit seeing what others are up to. It’s dark and quiet and there’s enough space in this environment for all my thoughts. All my hopes and dreams to be thought on. A wave of hope rushed over me and I felt led to share some thoughts on living with hope. • • I have heard that hope is nothing more than pain deferred. Or hope is nothing but postponed disappointment. Putting off feeling let down that something hasn’t happened yet. I will admit that at times I can get discouraged at some of my hopes that are still left unfulfilled. As years pass it can become harder and harder to hold out hope. As I wait on Gods perfect timing, in my humanness I see time passing by. When desires take longer than we would like, longer than it seems for others to receive the same desire or their own different desires, we can begin to feel defeated. But at times a rush of hope comes over me. I can tell because my heart instantly feels lighter, my attitude lightens, and I feel an easiness that was not there a second ago. This is why I feel we all should be living in hope. As much as we can. • • I keep Jeremiah 29:11 around me almost at all times. Not to tell myself that God plans to give me all I want, but to give me more than I think in the moment. If Gods promises are true for all His children, than you and I can rest assured He has good plans for us too. That He has a purpose for us. A good purpose. Not that this life won’t hold it’s troubles, but that it will also hold good. We just have to be open to it in any form it comes in. So far I’ll be honest and say I’m half way better at doing that, and working daily to up that percentage. • • I don’t know what you’re hoping for. What each passing day gets harder to believe in. I do know this, God should not be one of those things. Looking around at what we already hold is one way to keep faith in God. And keeping our eyes on the cross helps too. As we approach this Christmas season, a season that literally is about hope. The hope baby Jesus brought with Him. May we be lost in hope too. ♥️


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